what could be...

trying to hold back

everything that I wanna say
trying to understand

what exactly you are to me

I've been patient for so long

giving you the peek of what's inside

but you never seem to understand
or are you just trying to pretend

wishing that yesterday would be the day

where I'll say it out loud and clearly to you

but everything seem to be in the way

and I can only watch you walk away

maybe it's my fault for being a fool

not understanding what you really mean before

and maybe now it's too late

but i really hope you still feel the same way as before

naraj©2011

xoxo ♥

...your eyes...

boy, you're so sweet

you shine so bright but you didn't even know it

your voice so beautiful it captivates me

and I'm enchanted to meet you

do you remember when you drive to my house

in the middle of the night

and your eyes looks like you're about to cry

and you told me the story that made my heart ache for you

you look at me with those sad teary eyes

they shows how sorrowful you are inside

you laugh and sing with me

but those eyes still haunting me

you feel like you're alone

i tried to be by your side to keep your smile

to free you from your despair

but you never realize that

you may think i did it out of sympathy

and your eyes just look right through me

but deep inside I wonder

do you even realize what I feel for you

i wish you'll realize

that I could be the one

that will free you from your misery

cause I was enchanted to meet you

you're like the star to me

shining brightly than anyone

and I wish that you knew

that I will be here for you always

please don't be in love with someone else

please don't leave me for another again

naraj10©

♥ XOXO ♥

...Talking To The Moon...

I believe that silence is the best weapon to torture others feelings...

and you've done that to me a million times..

your silence is excruciating and torturing my heart and soul..

but when you did what you've done today...

your actions kills every little pieces of the fireflies that's left...

I feel so melancholy tonight...so I just wanna listen to Bruno Mars "Talking To The Moon"

I know you're somewhere out there
Somewhere far away
I want you back
I want you back
My neighbors think
I'm crazy
But they don't understand
You're all I have
You're all I have

[Chorus]
At night when the stars
Light on my room
I sit by myself
Talking to the Moon
Try to get to You
In hopes your on
The other side
Talking to me too
Oh Am I a fool
Who sits alone
Talking to the moon

I'm feeling like
I'm famous
The talk of the town
They say
I've gone mad
Yeah
I've gone mad
But they don't know
What I know
Cause when the
Sund goes down
Someone's talking back
Yeah
They're talking back

[Chorus]
At night when the stars
Light on my room
I sit by myself
Talking to the Moon
Try to get to You
In hopes your on
The other side
Talking to me too
Oh Am I a fool
Who sits alone
Talking to the moon

Ahh...Ahh...Ahh..
Do you ever hear me calling
Ho Hou Ho ho Hou

'Cause every night
I'm Talking to the Moon

Still try to get to You
In hopes your on
The other side
Talking to me too
Oh Am I a fool
Who sits alone
Talking to the moon

Ohoooo...

I know you're somewhere out there
Somewhere far away

  

and i was left...life goes on...

and I prefer my friend to sing this song to me...coz his voice is awesome...

and this song reminds me of the crazy night we went out together... :D

XOXO ♥

Cancellation of Limerence~~~ *wish i could*

Well, well, well!!! Looks like my adore have found himself another person... He admitted that he's in love with that girl~~~ I guess, that's mean no more waiting for graduation for me... He's already gone...
The limerence that i have towards him are somehow have to be killed, sooner or later.. Meanwhile, i'm gonna live my life the way it is, coz i'm always here for me, and no one else will...
The thing is, its a lie if i said that i didnt hurt by what he'd done... I guess it doesnt hurt if he does that to me without knowing what i feel for him, juz like i used to like someone for 6 years before...it doesnt hurt when he have a gf finally bcoz he doesnt know... But in this case, its different... i think my feelings towards him is obvious and plus i did ask him directly on what he felt bout me, and guess what? He never replied...any of it! That hurts you know~~~ It really hurts when he knows how i feel and still ignores me...
But i guess, i'm not a princess whose fairytale would come true~~~
I wish him the best and hope he will be happy while i'll make my life happier with my musics~~~
Thats all for today....
XOXO <3

p/s: oniichan, if you're reading this, thank you for all ur counseling advice..hehehe~~

Tentang Kamu~~~

ku tak bisa menebak
ku tak bisa membaca
tentang kamu
tentang kamu

kau buat ku bertanya
selalu dalam hatiku
tentang kamu
tentang kamu

bagaimana bila akhirnya ku cinta kau
dari kekuranganmu hingga lebihmu
bagaimana bila semua benar terjadi
mungkin inilah yang terindah

looks like he found the one he adored already and i guess the arrangement are dismissed~~
Oniichan told me to not give up yet and just hold on..but i couldnt hope for more

All I wanted is to know
All I need is reassurance
All I ask is for you to tell me
Everything that I want to know

You made my world chaos
You made the turbulence that I couldnt stop
I wanna believe you
But I'm scared that I could lost

Lost and trapped in the space
Of where my heart wont rest
But I'll do my best
wishing this is just a test

If you're taking it slow
Just let me know
Dont left me blind
if you're just being too kind

Looking around me
I know you're all that I see
and I'm just being me
Living my life without you here

-naraj©2010-