Love~

All this while
I thought what i've felt before was love
I thought i was in love
that i really was in love

I always thought
love is not as beautiful as i always imagine it was
maybe it was only that beautiful and blissful in my head
maybe it was just my imagination

then i met him
and he showed me
the kind of love that i always imagined
the kind that makes you feel blissful and grateful

the kind that makes you feel so lucky
the kind that makes you want to tell the world
that you finally found the one
found your soulmate

the kind of love that makes you unselfish
the kind that all you want was his happiness
the kind that makes you want to be his backbone
the kind that you'd do anything to make him happy

its the kind of love
that eventhough how hard everything falls apart
you could never hate him
because it was true love

it was the first love
that was true to me
the one that makes me feel how lucky I am
to be able to feel that kind of feeling before I go

real love, it is a beautiful thing...
and i'm lucky enough to experienced it in my part

-naraj2014-

...running...

She gets up after she was slammed face down to the earth,
She starts with a slow crawl to find the lights
Still she stumbles along the way due to the vines
Still she bleeds getting through every thorns along the way

It was painful and it was torture 
Sometimes she rue her decision of carrying on
But after a while, she became jaded
All the pain and the cries has become dull

And then she runs with all her heart desire
and she breathe all the air that she's loving
and she sings all the beautiful serenade that she knows
and she begin to love herself more

The forest is still dark,there's nothing that she can see
but she keep on running based on her instinct
to find the lights that could make her see
all the beautiful things that her eyes crave to feast

there was a shine, a blinking distant light
she couldn't be sure but it gave her the sight
it makes her happy, it gives her joy
but that light keep blinking and it makes her heart sore

She was hopeful that the light would stays
To keep on shining throughout the journey
But the light can be misleading
and she might end up with a poach heart and bleeding

-naraj©2012-

xoxo ♥

Eyes Open

Why??

I keep wondering why...

why now? why them?

Been listening a lot to Taylor Swift's Eyes Open lately and learning the guitar chords for it..hence the title...

Also, as a reminder to myself to always keep my eyes open...and be alert!~ o.0 (for what, i dont even know)

Ya see...my first ex...he's a nice guy...it's just, i guess for the first one, I'm expecting the kind of guy who would worshiped me and be all over me when we were in a relationship...though I admit, I dont really feel that exited about him, I'm just in love with the idea of being in love for the first time...which I know by now it's not really love... x_x
after 7years of dumping him over the phone, ( as we are far apart and I haven't receive any news from him more than a week )...suddenly my cousin called me and ask, do know this guy that claimed to know me and used to be very close to me like his own family?? ( mind you, we rarely speak or msg each other back then..and we're in a r/ship not more than 3weeks i guess )

she told me his name, and its quite a unique name, so of course I know straight away, though the facts is not that true..haha..

so, my cousin was so excited and try to get us together again, but thankfully, he's in relationship now... *phew* ...and she stops talking about him...

and I thought, wow, it really is a small world and it's kinda nice to know that he still remembers something that I forget already...up until his name showed up again.. *ngeehehee*

then, my other cousin ( a boy this time )...he's working as some state officials that requires him to go to remote places and what not...even though its tiring, but its kinda nice, having to travel around to places you wouldn't even know exist..

so, one day he came to our grams house ( i was there that day ) with a new car...my dream car at that, so i asked him, who's car is that? and he said, it was his friend...the one who's working with him now...and he asked me if I know him..as we are from the same Uni maybe different year...and he told me the name...the son-of-a-bitch-that-I'd-rather-forget name...dang! of all people...now I feel like I'm cursed~hahhaa... that guy used to be my scandal until I broke it off with him, coz being with him, ya at first i feel like in a fairytale kind of relationship, until I found out that he has a gf back home, and all the scandals that he used to have before me, which is a lot!...turns out that he have the reputation of a player among the guys coz he's very slick among girls...sound so goodytwoshoes that you can't believe of what he capable of...enough said, I tried..i said TRIED getting rid of him so hard...can't believe he turns out to be a stalker as I was the first girl ever dumping him...*hell yeah~ I'm proud of me!! XD*...he stalks me and even tried to sweet talk me into getting together with him again...oh-my-goodness...such a nightmare..

soooo...worried of my freedom from the stalker, i told my cousin not to ever mention my name or having knowing me in front of him in any case...being the annoying cousin he is, he threatened me into telling him if i didnt tell him "our" story...so i just told him that he used to be my stalker that could really be my worst-nightmare-coming-true, and thankfully he's happy with that explanation...

The world is indeed very small...and I just wish to never ever even bumped into that stalker ever...EVER! 

xoxo,

naraj©2012

downloading-maniac-on-the-move

Happy New Year everyone!
Ya, I know, it's march already and I'm still saying happy new year to you.. =.=''
the thing is, I've been so occupied with all my school work before and due to nada internet connection, I'm not able to update anything...and usually my ideas would come when I'm in no possible condition to online...
geezz...i think my grammar's getting terrible...due to less rambling in writing and when I do ramble while talking with friends, I don't even know what me myself are saying...hahhaa.. m_m

so, finally, I'm a graduate student!!! yeay! Done with my bachelor degree in multimedia computing...just got back to my hometown almost 1 month now...
as usual, will be the Rapunzella (which is Cinderella + Rapunzel, Cinderella for doing all the house chores, and Rapunzel for being "trapped" in these huge house of mine in the middle of the forest..coz I have no license or any transport to go anywhere)

see, I told you, my house is in the middle of forest...the one with the yellow arrow...hahaha...

anyway, back then books is the only salvation for me..coz tv can be too boring...and now that I've got the wifi connection for my house, I've became a download maniac~ Noooooo!!!!!!!!   )o.0( 

not that I intend to...was thinking of doing some freelancing while looking for jobs...but then, seems that my siblings are all addicted to Korean Variety shows nowadays, esp Running Man, so I'm the only 'man' that are capable of looking for all the downloading links for the latest  episodes..thus, that what I've been doing since I have this internet connection...A bliss!!! muahahahhaaa!!! <---evil laugh =.=''
not just running man, I've been busy downloading English series ,Korean drama series, Japanese drama series and also Taiwan drama series...woot!! not to forget, Movies!!!!!...hahaha... thats why i dont mind being a Rapunzel..hehehee~


well, most of the days I do spent it at my grams house, but then I have to wake up at 5am to be able to follow my mom and sister and ask them to send me to grams house b4 they went for work...very early indeed..coz they need to send my lil sister to her school which always jammed by 7am..so, to escape all the traffic, they prefer to go as early as possible.

ok, back to the downloading part...as all the downloaders know, movies and drama series can took a lot of space..so now, everything is RED in my laptop and ext harddisk..my 1.5TB...guess i need more now, as I'm addicted to downloading old drama series like Charmed!! ooohhh~ i miss those old days~

oh well, enough rambling for now..gotta go...need to prepare for dinner~ ciao~

-naraj2012-

...a different side of me...

this blog has been gloomy lately...and most of it are poems like i guess...sorry guys..didnt realize it..haha..
ah well, I've decided to create a new blog..a much more brighter version I hope~ ;p
and maybe this will be much of my ramblings on positive thoughts...hehe..
 this is the different side of this blog..

Waiting For The Sun Shines by My Window

enjoy~ (n_n)

(credits to: Epicgames)

...Arms...

Christina Perri - Arms

I never thought that you would be the one to hold my heart
You came around and you knocked me off the ground from the start

You put your arms around me
And I believe that it's easier for you to let me go
You put your arms me and I'm home

How many times will let you me change my mind and turn around?
I can't decide if I'll let you save my life or if I'll drown
I hope that you see right through my walls
I hope that you catch me 'cause I'm already falling
I'll never let our love get so close
You put your arms around me and I'm home

The world is coming down on me and I can't find a reason to be loved
I never wanna leave you but I can't make you bleed if I'm alone

You put your arms around me
And I believe that it's easier for you to let me go...

I hope that you see right through my walls
I hope that you catch me 'cause I'm already falling
I'll never let our love get so close...

You put your arms around me and I'm home...

p/s: another great lyrics and song from Christina Perri that really feels like it reads my mind~ ;p

xoxo ♥

new addiction...trying to runaway...

I need new addiction...which is easy during this holiday~hehheee...

found new drama and artist..

and I really want to watch this new taiwan drama~~~

Death Girl aka Gloomy Salad Days

been trying to find the download link with english subs..huhuhu..

and also, there is this new taiwan artist that is very handsome and his voice is very amazing~

introducing

Anthony Neely!!

isn't he's cute???

he's mix chinese and america i've heard...thus, the good looks...

the smile...ahhhh~*melts*

Try to search for his songs in youtube...

The one that I love is "Sorry that I loved you"

a very sad one...at first, i thought he was some new american artist..turns out he's a taiwanese.. ;p

well, thats all for now...

XOXO ♥