Cold

Cause I'm dying here
You were lying it was you and I forever
But now you make me shiver in the light
And I'm dying here,
And I'm crying over you that I remember
But now you make me shiver
You're so cold

Am I meant to sit here
And just take this,
When you promised me that I would be the one that you would never leave
I can't believe I fell for what you said
Does it make you feel good to make me feel less than I am?
Does it make you feel strong? Like you're a bigger man?
What did I do to deserve you to shut me out?
Did I love too much? Is that what this is about?
I used to thank god every morning for having you in my life
And now I'm praying just to forget you, and you know why

And if you were gonna lie, at least be a man and lie it to my face.
So you can watch my tears turn to blood, as I tear myself apart
Wondering why, why I ever fell for you
I put myself through hell for you

**** you, I hate you!
I love you, I need you
I wanna run, but I don't wanna run if you're not gonna find me.
So we should just pretend to be friends, right?
And fake our way to the bitter end.


You said that I'm the one
So why'd you leave me shivering in the cold?

Love~

All this while
I thought what i've felt before was love
I thought i was in love
that i really was in love

I always thought
love is not as beautiful as i always imagine it was
maybe it was only that beautiful and blissful in my head
maybe it was just my imagination

then i met him
and he showed me
the kind of love that i always imagined
the kind that makes you feel blissful and grateful

the kind that makes you feel so lucky
the kind that makes you want to tell the world
that you finally found the one
found your soulmate

the kind of love that makes you unselfish
the kind that all you want was his happiness
the kind that makes you want to be his backbone
the kind that you'd do anything to make him happy

its the kind of love
that eventhough how hard everything falls apart
you could never hate him
because it was true love

it was the first love
that was true to me
the one that makes me feel how lucky I am
to be able to feel that kind of feeling before I go

real love, it is a beautiful thing...
and i'm lucky enough to experienced it in my part

-naraj2014-

Falling to nothingness...

Exhausted
I can't sleep
I can't breathe
Broke down every night and somehow become my lullaby
Broke down every morning after everyone leave the house

I'm falling apart
More and more each day
my heart, my hope, my love
I dont know if i could carry on this way

Now i dreaded
going to that place
the place where I might see you
Your face in the crowd
Afraid that I would be broken beyond saving
seeing the face that I love so much
that i missed so much
but beyond my reach

I never want to give up
coz this is more than just a fleeting feelings for me
i dreamt of forever
but you let go easily

I dread the day i see you
might be the day when i will be into pieces
i know i wont die
but i also know, i wont be the same
i feel the lights are slowly dying
the darkness starts creeping in
what i was once,
will only be the shell that held me in

-naraj2014-

that feeling...

its something that makes you warm inside
its something that feels fuzzy in your heart
its something that makes you remind of your innocent years
its something that reminds you of how pure your feelings back then
its something that makes you realize how far you've grown
its something that makes you miss that childish crush without any hurt
its something that makes you realize how twisted the meaning of love that you've dreamt of and what you've encountered
its something that makes you wish you can love in that pure and innocent way again
its something that makes you walk down the memory lane
its something that reminded me of how nervous i am whenever i'm around you
its something that reminded me of how i used to get tounge-tied whenever i tried to talk to you
its that welcoming feeling when you come over and said hi to me in that magical place
its that nice and warming handshakes that makes my heart skips a beat
its just something about you that makes me feel like the little girl i used to be...

xoxo
-naraj2012-