that feeling...

its something that makes you warm inside
its something that feels fuzzy in your heart
its something that makes you remind of your innocent years
its something that reminds you of how pure your feelings back then
its something that makes you realize how far you've grown
its something that makes you miss that childish crush without any hurt
its something that makes you realize how twisted the meaning of love that you've dreamt of and what you've encountered
its something that makes you wish you can love in that pure and innocent way again
its something that makes you walk down the memory lane
its something that reminded me of how nervous i am whenever i'm around you
its something that reminded me of how i used to get tounge-tied whenever i tried to talk to you
its that welcoming feeling when you come over and said hi to me in that magical place
its that nice and warming handshakes that makes my heart skips a beat
its just something about you that makes me feel like the little girl i used to be...

xoxo
-naraj2012-

...i dont know...

this head keep thinking
keep wishing that you'd still care
keep hoping that you'd stay
despite all the the pushing you away

this heart still misses you
still craving your presence next to me
wishing for something that I shouldn't be wishing for
wishing for the moment when you wish the time would stop

but my heart
wished for things to be like it used to
wished for times when I don't even care
wished for the days when my heart is not affected at all

its tiring
its taking a toll on me
the hurt when you don't seem like you care
the pain when i remembered that morning message she sent to you

...riverside...

here i am again

standing and strolling by the riverside

with a belief that I'm strong enough

strong enough to denied the temptation

the water's calling

the current is soothing

it makes my heart race

dying to jump into it again

I thought I was strong

to just looking at it by the riverside

but I guess I was wrong

as I feel myself slowly walking towards the edge

I hesitate, and I stopped

but I can't help myself from jumping

now I find myself sinking deep

slowly drowning

the water looked calm and tantalizing

but now that I'm inside

I can feel myself gasping for air

I need the surface to keep my head clear

I don't know how to survive this time around

Coz I've jumped too far ahead

With no hands or branch for me to hold on to

All I can do is to pray that I am strong enough

Strong enough to save myself

Strong enough to swim myself to the riverside

And decided not to look back ever again

Coz something told me to run

-Jonker Street, Melaka-

-naraj©2012-

xoxo ♥

...all i wanted...

all i wanted
Was to know that heart of yours
Was it in sync with mine

Or am i standing alone
It hurts to be here
I only wanted love from you

All i have..all i need
Is the air i would kill to breath

You could be my hero
If only i could let go
Coz it feels like a broken arrow
That's still in me

got both feet in...

Hey I just met you but this is crazy...

yaa...the song keeps ringing in my head when i see him..
hmm..i'm guessing its possible, due to the catchy tune and the funny videoclip,
though i hope he's not gay like the one in the clip..lol

i don't know how he is in real life...
he looks very adorable and awkward when you see him...
but when you chat or text with him, he sounds funny and have deep thoughts...

maybe because he was born a lil later than me,
so I keep having these thoughts of wanting to know him and protecting him..
and the cute face makes me feel that way too..hehe XP

he have these kind of face that makes you say adorable...
cute and childlike...and the way he walks...just cute!hahaha..
he's always being nice to me...well maybe he thinks that i'm lonely in that place...
lonely? not really..but bored when i have no task to do yeah...hehe
plus, he's funny and its nice chatting with him...and quite a teaser himself...

maybe i shouldn't play teasing with him...coz I'm not a teaser and I end up saying sincere and honest words while others thinks I'm teasing~ =.=

though most of the times i think i'm annoying him...lol
but still, I can't stop myself from looking for him...
like my own brand of drugs...lol...very bad for me but still can't resist the temptations.. *die*

the innocence that glows within him...
attracts me from the first sight..
like how a moth is attracted to light..
that's how I feel when I see him...
and to see his name appear on my phone or even my chatbox...
makes me smile without any solid reason...
huh..i guess I am getting deranged~ hoh my~~ 0.0

-naraj©2012-

xoxo ♥