...i dont know...

this head keep thinking
keep wishing that you'd still care
keep hoping that you'd stay
despite all the the pushing you away

this heart still misses you
still craving your presence next to me
wishing for something that I shouldn't be wishing for
wishing for the moment when you wish the time would stop

but my heart
wished for things to be like it used to
wished for times when I don't even care
wished for the days when my heart is not affected at all

its tiring
its taking a toll on me
the hurt when you don't seem like you care
the pain when i remembered that morning message she sent to you

all the darkest fears...

sometimes you think you are good enough

well the truth is, you're not

sometimes you think you deserves better,

well the truth is, you doesn't

sometimes you think you're cool,

well honey, you sucks!

sometimes you think you can fool everyone

well, hello, there's still who are smart enough to know

sometimes you think you're right

well the truth is you're wrong

sometimes you think that you're the only one who's hurting

well think again, coz your child suffer more

sometimes you think it's okay to hurt your own blood

well let me ask you, who's going to take care of you later?

sometimes you think you are so beautiful

well darling, beauty fades...but you're darken heart doesn't

sometimes you think you're on the right side

well how about i suggest you listen to both sides first

sometimes I'm just so fed up with all this

well, I'm bracing it for the sake of the one's I love 

-naraj11-

...Just LOL...

and I wanna laugh it off

coz I make myself sound silly

and I asked myself  "really??"

coz its all just a fucking game for you

and I thought that I was strong

I thought I could play along

but instead I fall off the edge

and now I'm left with the damage

this heart is not functioning no more

with you, it's the final straw

and I dont wanna care anymore

coz there's no room left that are cured

and you thought I would cry?

sorry it just never happen

my tears are all dried up before you

and it still won't come out for you

naraj©11

xoxo ♥

..Annoyismn...

curiosity? oh it is good...but it also can kill...
but now, it only cause me lots and lots of annoyance!!!
what would you feel when, one day..out of the blue, some unknown number called you but they didnt speak a word? and you feel stupid talking to the empty phone until they hang up on you...
aahh~ maybe some would say, I should be flattered coz maybe some admire are flirting with me...
Duh!!!

one thing to be straight, I dont play games in this LOVE department...
and I hate people playing tricks or hide-and-seek with me!
sorry, I'm not that kind of girl..if you planned to play around, go find someone else...
and I don't take relationship easily...I only go for the serious type or long term type...so, anyone that wants to dump me as soon as you guys had enough of me, you are sooo in my BLACK LIST now...
poach my heart and I'll let you die slowly... muahahahaha~ *evil laugh*

I'll wallow, I'll be sad...and that's because those feelings are my muse...but that doesn't mean that I really can't get over it...I'm sooooo over it the day you start feeding me your LIES...

to the number owner, seems like you've known me...and you should be thankful that I dont have any credit to give you a piece of me that you'll regret...tell me the truth and you'll be spared...
Just stop this annoying thingy ok!!! I need peace not some curiosity that'll cause me annoyance...better hurry before it's too late...I may forgive, but you may be ignored...
there...
thank you for listening...

naraj©2011

xoxo ♥

...just keep on...

I let you in

and I thought that maybe

you're the place where I finally 

can call home

But when the storm came

and the waves crash over us

I saw that home shattered

and I'm left picking up the pieces

Now I'm in the deepest depth

of the darkness that I thought has gone

when you gave me the light to walk with

but then you let it die and leave me crawling

naraj©11

xoxo ♥

...could it be....

could it be

that you are just making excuse

that you are actually over me

and you are finding reasons to get it over with

and you don't want me to hate you

when I said I rather have you telling me that you fall out of love

you said you wouldn't do that

coz it will end up with me hating you

but what I hate the most is when it's true but you're too afraid to admit it too

have you ever thought that

sooner or later

I'll end up hating you

when you finally found someone new

when all that I have is the sand in my shoes

thinking that I was being a fooled

coz I'm the only one who didn't know the truth

naraj©11

xoxo ♥