Just a boy

he was just a boy
who thinks that he is good enough to be a man
he was just living in his own made up world
listening to everything his mind made up for him

he was just a boy
who keeps looking for someone to be blame
for everything that he failed to have
for every mess that he created for himself

he was just a boy
who knows how to play with words
picking up strays and pieces of sentences from someone else feelings
reusing the same old sentences he keeps feeding to his new interest

he was just a boy
who managed to open my heart
and destroyed it in just a blink of an eye
without even looking back

he was just a boy
living in his own illusions
instead of making it happen
coz all he ever did was just standing there

he was just a boy
who used to seem so fragile and scared
who used to keep begging me to promise not to leave him
who walks away easily when i hold on to my promises

when i thought that he was a man
a real man who finally can keep up with me
turns out that it was just a facade
coz he was just a boy lost in his own illusions

-naraj2014-