Ramadhan is ending soon...
It's sad...I don't want it to end...
A month of blessings and full of love from God to us...
Syawal?
Not that I'm not happy for it...
It's just, have to face the first day of raya at my grams house...with the uncles and aunts from my father's side there...and the raya prayer...and the crying that would definitely come after that...reminiscing about daddy...
It's just to heartbreaking for me...
Still trying and pretend to be strong every time I talked about daddy, but when all of them are crying on the first day of raya thinking how we missed him so much...It's too painful and I'm not eager for that moment...at all...
I don't want to cry...coz I know, that would pain him in his peace knowing people are still grieving for him...
And I know that he is in a better place...Insya-Allah...Allah loves him better than we do...
Daddy, your little princess misses you a lot...I just wish I could hug you for one more time...coz I still remember the moment where I hugged & kissed your cold body for the last time...I miss you daddy...
"Ya Allah, please forgive all his sins and all my sins that makes him suffer..."
-naraj©2012-
xoxo ♥
