... a typical morning at work...

it's been fun at work...

filled with different characters that are as colorful as rainbow after the rain..
though the annoyance still linger for some

but at some point i do feel a lil sympathy for that person..as we always try to ignore him..

I hate when these feelings occured... *knock head*

but...lets get on with the others k..

no real name are put in here

there are

• iris - blurry juz like 'sizuka', IS student... tp dpt ANC for her diploma...diam2 jak..LOL
• riri - AD student...quite a character...very loud all the time except when we are having lunch..hahha
• wawa - a shy guy..well, looks like it..IS student too...but he can be quite a chatter when it came to gossip..gossip boy!! ROTFL
• fefe - another gossip boy.my junior CS..penyelak...suka kaco iris..hahhaa...coz iris owest slip her tongue when she pronounce S and R
• rere - my CS classmate...she prefer to sit and play her farmville...but at times she also join fefe to selak people..hahhaha..and she likes to tease wawa...LOL

well...i prefer not to talk bout the other person...though i do feel kinda guilty for ignoring him these few days...

I feel kinda rude...I dont like being treated that way if i'm in his place..but I dont know how to deal with him..

I'm sorry...but I have to.. 

Oh well, not to spoil my mood this lovely morning...

all we care about is downloading movie or series..hahhaa

and of course our work too~~

that's all for the time being

XOXO ♥

...it's all bull-s**t...

actually, this thought have been hanging around in my head lately

Just didn't have the right time and the right place to spill it out

Haven't been able to get my hands on Kaname-sama the lappy at night coz mum've been using it..

But now, she got her own little lappy, so she won't bother mine...i hope so..hahaha

The thing is...

People keep saying that size doesn't matter...or appearance doesn't matter..

But you what?

It's all bulls**t!

No matter what, people will always looks at the appearance rather than what's inside you...

It's a typical way of human thinking i might say...

The Impression always be the first thing people think about and talk about...

Looks always comes first..even for me... ♥

I'm saying this out of what I've observe from certain people that I've known...

Since I'm little, grandma keep saying that I'm beautiful, but grandpa keep saying that I look like a monkey coz I was quite a rascal back then...play with the boys and act like them...hahahhaa..

And i was so active that everything that i ate just don't linger long enough to become fat in my body..

But since I entered senior high school and been busy with classes and club activities, I stop our daily race routine...

A sudden stop makes all the things that I ate became fat..LOL

I like it though....coz guys notices me more less than before I guess...

I used to think that being beautiful is harder than being ugly...

Coz I always think that people will only love me for how I look..

Not what I am inside...

So, when my grandpa keep saying that I look fat and no one will like me...I'm feeling quite content..hahahha

Then, my mum keep asking me to cut down my food intake...my dad still loves me regardless...

and there's this one person..she keep saying that I look just fine and not fat..bla bla bla...

and she said looks doesnt matter..and those stuff..bla bla bla...

Then suddenly, she compares me with my sister...which I hate a lot!

I hate comparison!

She told me that I should slim down..coz I'm more beautiful than my sister if I'm slimmer...

which I totally disagree!!

No matter what my sis is more beautiful...I adore her... :D

and to think that she compared me with my sis and told me to find a good guy and to slim down to look beautiful...it's just too much!!!

Seriously!

I dont care if no one likes me the way I am now...

Apparently, they are not worthy for me that way...

I still remember the feelings of insecure I get when I was in my previous r/ship...

I keep asking him why? the real reason he likes me...and I'm feeling more insecure when he answered bcoz I'm beautiful...

It's gruesome~~~

I feel as though he would leave me anytime when he feels I'm not beautiful enough for him anymore..

which kinda turns out true...b*****d

ooppsss!! getting so emo out of the blue...

oh well...

I think that's quite enough for now..

Klak ada gik org ngerepak mdh panjang glak n xda noktah lak...ROTFL

XOXO  ♥

♬♫♪ laugh it off the......whatever ♪♫♬

 I'm trying hard to play Gavotte these few days...

It's kinda hard..what with the slur and the crochet and so much more..

But I hope I could play it well by the next class...

I like the sounds... I try to memorize it but my fingers just won't keep up with me..

Keep slacking at the slur part~~

*sigh*

Btw, my sister bought 3 hamsters for us..

and i just started paying attention to them yesterday...

and they are soooo kawaiiii!!!!!! ♥♥♥

and my sister mock me by saying, "we already fell in love with them for a long time, but you just realize how cute they are?? Go la play your violin...always so busy with violin"

hahahhaa...

sorry sis, I just want to improve my skills..that's all~~

But lately, been going home late from work and fetching up mum n big sis..i sometimes didnt have the time to practice...

When i have the time, i usually end up playing for one hour straight..and then i fall asleep tired from playing~~~

well...at least having fun at work even though there one person that always makes me feel sooooo annoyed~

Oh well...enough said~

That's all for now

XOXO ♥

...life's like the sea...

pictures credits to google

All these while

I've been watching and loving the seaworld of adults

Watching how the sea become calm with the slight breeze

Watching how the wave of love come crashing the serenity of the ocean

Watching how the same wave can cause different kind of emotions

Watching from the cliff

All I wanted is to jump in the ocean

and feel all the different kind of emotions there is

To know what the wave of love really feels

To experience all the different kind of waves there is

I've waited for my time

I dive into the sea

I go along with the current

I'm having fun along the wave

Until that particular wave came

and I found myself unable to pull through

I keep sinking down to the bottom

Now I'm finally able to breathe

But nothing feels the same again

Coz my lungs still feel the burnt from the salty water

and it seems like nothing can get rid of it

naraj 09 ©

XOXO ♥

..remember december...

so, it's december....

In a blink of an eye...we reach the end of the year

and Christmas is coming up!

Lots of stuff to do lately..

haven't been able to post any stuff yet~

Briefly, I've been watching Koishite Akuma (Vampire Boy)

It's about a young vampire who still haven't grown his canine teeth.

Still downloading the ep3 now..I've watch till ep 2..

Quite captivating! ♥♥♥

The torrent link and direct link download can be found from

Timelessub

still waiting for Samurai High School Ep4 and Yumeiro Pattissiere Ep9 to be uploaded by timelessub and Strawberry-mint..