...Samurai High School...

ahhhh....listening to the sounds of the wave while writing this down in a balcony with the wind gently caressing me...

It feels sooo good~~~ LOL

I just want to share my favorite drama for the time being...

Samurai High School

which Miura Haruma is the lead actor!!! *melts*

It's about a very wacky high school teenager that is being possess by his ancestor, the Samurai with the same name as him. A very funny one i might say...keep laughing while watching it...and Miura is soooo cute!!!

It's still ongoing.. I can't wait for the next episodes..

and you can find the download link from

Timelessub

Love this site!!! Got lots of drama series for download

Hope you guys enjoy it too!!! (n_n)

XOXO ♥

....☼ shines....

☁ Life is like going thru the Ferris wheel endlessly☁

Everyday, my lil bro will fetch me up when I'm going to or back from work..

Sometimes, he drives the car, sometimes he bring his scooter...

As we are on our way home..the sun shines so brightly in the evening that time

and i was hiding my face from it...My eyes hurts like hell from the glare of the sun..

So, i was looking down at the road most of the time..

And it just pop in my head...

I feel just like the Sun...

I think I noe how it feels...

 As everyone aware of, Sun plays an important role in our daily life..

We need it to dry up our laundry

We need the heat to feel hot

We need it to make sure our plants grow beautifully

 

We need the ray to light up our day

To keep it short, we need it to live our lives!

But, we never looks the sun in the eyes...

We never truly looks at it..

We hate it when the day became too hot for us...

We hate it when it shines to bright and hurt our eyes...

We hate it when everything get so dry and the rain doesn't fall...

Frankly speaking, we hate the sun and we never look it in the eyes or really understands it..

But when we want the ray and the heat, then we'll be wishing for it to show up...
But we never really love it anyway...

Just like what I've felt...mostly in my life....

Since I was a lil kid...

I was mostly not needed in my own house..

My mum keep telling me to sleep at grams house..which is ok with me, coz i love my gramps..

But I do feel a lil bit hurt..coz everytime I'm not home with them, they always bring my sister to go out...

Until when I was able to cook, and helping in the kitchen, which is thanks to my lovely grandma that loves to taught me everything that I'm curious about...

By then, my mum keep asking me to come home to help her cook...

When my sister watched tv, I'm in the kitchen cooking...and thankfully not alone, coz my precious dad always accompany me and also taught me new things to cook..

While grandma taught me Malay and kampung food, my dad taught me western and chinese food...

I love them both so much! Both mum and son!

May Allah blessed my father's soul~~ Amin..

Well...so to speak, I'm only needed at home when she needs someone to help take care of the house, of my siblings and also do all the chores that she never asked my sister to do...

When i complaint, she keeps telling me that I'm not grateful for what she have done for me...

I never rebel much back then..coz I just want her to accept me like she did with my sister...

But sadly...it was never that way...

She only will act mellow with me when there's something she wants me to do..

If not, it's only to scold me of something that is not my fault..

Just like the sun....being hate just when it was trying to do it's best for us...

But I'm ok with it now I guess..kind of used with it..and she did mellow a lil bit since Dad passed away...

Maybe she realize that she was always being unfair to me...

Maybe she realize that, Daddy is not here anymore to back-up for me, which he always do...

*Gosh, I miss him*

Maybe...she did love me after all...

XOXO ♥

...school or no school...

As some of my friends that already know this, I was thinking of changing back my music school to the 1st music school I've attend...and i was thinking of going by next month.... The reason behind??
There are at least 2 reasons...
1. my hensem lao shi wants to quit and I'm afraid that they give me the lousy teacher again...;p
2. I noe i can do better in IMH...got lots of opportunity over there I guess...and it's well known than the one I'm attending now...

But then, it suddenly hits me that , its already the end of the year...and it's kind of  late to enroll at the last minute... And fortunately, last week they give me this new teacher.... let me called him 'Lao Shi D' ☺
And to be honest, I'm enjoying myself more in his class than any of my previous teacher...no offense hensem lao shi.. :P
I like the way he handle my class...and he even taught me bowing technique that i never known exist..hahhaa...obviously no one care to teach me that... *sigh*
So, seeing that I have a good teacher waiting, i guess i just hold on till the end of the  year...plus, I dont even know if I'm gonna be around next year or not... If i did continue my study (which is being objected by my big sis and my mum), I'm going to Shah Alam by next year....and if i can't continue, then I'll enroll to IMH by january....But I'm still worry about my violin exam...afraid that the application for it closed already...
*sigh sigh sigh*

Oh well, gonna do all I can and as long as I can I guess....PMS's suck!! big time!!!
*couldn't act like a real lady at time like this LOL*
*plus, dat annoying person stills linger around me...but i just pretend i didnt heard him calling or talking to me..pretending that I'm engrossed in my work...hahaha... I just don't want to be rude..that's all...but I don't know how much longer i can take.....*

XOXO ♥

....annoyism is prickling my head...

Shoot!!

I dont know what should I do...

here i was, in the library, supposedly doing design for an animate slideshow..

but, can't do it...

My lappy is hijacked without my consent and I'm quite irritated now~~~

This morning, i tot i wanna finish up atleast arranging those pictures that i took in the right order..

But then, there's this guy, supposedly doing the cataloging..saying that he have no work to do...

Because all the staff are having a meeting, so left us the part-time student/worker by ourselves...

So, he suddenly went to my place and start shouting layfully at me telling that he wants to watch movie that's in my laptop..that time I was still arranging my iTunes songlists for the day, besides importing the pictures into the flash library i was going to use..

So he said, i can do it later..just let him watch some movie first...amd i was hesitating..coz I dont know how to say no actually...so lame! I mean me~~ L.A.M.E~~

So, i let him used my lappy...

and i ran to the library counter to help my friend...better than doing nothing right?

And here I am, still at the counter...discharging books and charging books that are being borrowed by staffs or students...

But, a while ago, I saw that he was not at my desk...so i went up to my lappy, and saw that all my applictaions are off..seems like it was just restarted...and I noe my lappy...if it's restarted, usually it just when it just updating something or crashed!!...but i dont know which..coz he didnt tell me anything...

Honto honto kiraiineh~

so i resume back all my downloads and stuffs...then suddenly i was needed at the counter...when I look back at my desk, he was there again..watching another movie..and he didnt even ask me!!!

How RUDE is that????

How can someone be so ignorant when using someone's property???

and now, I'm ranting in my blog using the PC at the library counter..feeling utterly annoyed!!!

How can i be a lady like this??? urgghhhhh~~~!!!!!!

XOXO <3

Yumeiro Patissiere

My favourite Anime lately is

Yumeiro patissiere...

The story centers on a 14-year-old girl named Ichigo Amano who wants to be a pâtissière (female pastry chef), but is extremely clumsy. One day, she enrolls in St. Marie Academy, a culinary school for sweets, and meets a "sweets spirit." She gets off to a rough start when one of the "Princes of Sweets" yells at her, but then meets her sweets spirit, Vanilla. (credit to Wikipedia)

this anime is very fun...seeing how Ichigo doing her very best to make sweets that can make other people happy... a very moving anime i might say... love the end credit where they showed a real pastry chef doing all the design for the sweets.

and thanks to

Strawberry Mint

for subbing it in english and also they're doing a project on my favourite anime "La Corda D'Oro"

I get the full episode of La COrda D'Oro Primo Passo from them too..

and now waiting for Secondo Passo to finish.. Sugoie nee~~

hope you guys enjoy it too (n_n)

XOXO  ♥

....how to be a real lady...

By all means, It's not that I'm saying that I'm a fake lady..hahaha...
But as the book said, 'being a woman does not automatically make one a lady'...
Being a lady differ in definition as the time goes.. and by today's definition,

• a lady is one that knows that by educating herself in every way possible from higher education to the common sense manners, empowers her to become a woman of accomplishment and poise...
• she knows that it is not the dress size she wears or the money she possess that brings her satisfaction in life..
• a lady knows that beauty and wealth can be fleeting, but her innner character is the measure by which others will ultimately judge her as a person.
• her courtesies, the high esteem in which she holds herself and others and her sincere word and thoughtfulness will reflect her strong values..

pheww~~ quite an accomplishment to get... being thought of as a "Lady" may be the one of the highest compliment a woman can receive in life...

Ok..so, lets start with the lesson... *gigling histerically* ooppsss~~ ehem~ i want to be a lady here...must be poise~~ ;p

A lady never compliments one person when she is in a group setting. She chooses a moment when the two of them are alone to offer her compliment.

A lady respects other people's time whether at the office or at home.

If a lady finds herself in the company of someone who is embarrassing her, she may ask to be taken home. Should her friend refuse, a lady may feel free to leave, even if that means calling a cab or asking another friend for a ride home.

If a lady must excuse herself from the dinner table, she simply says, "Excuse me." No further explanation is necessary.

A lady returns any item she borrows in a timely manner and in the same condition she received it.

A lady doesn't discuss her breakups with others. <--- Just knew this one..hahaha..

A lady learns how she looks best when being photographed. <-- uh oh..i could never pull this one.. *sigh*

A lady makes every effort not to be late. 

If a lady arrives late, she waits until there is an appropriate pause and then very quietly slips into her seat. 

A lady knows how to make others feel at ease.

A lady doesn't talk during a performance, a speech or a lecture. <---broke this rules a million times..LOL 

If a lady arrives at a door first, she opens it for the person entering behind her. 

A lady graciously accepts a compliment. She does not downgrade herself as if she did not deserve the admiration from the other person or persons. She simply respinds with, "thank you."

A lady does not wear clothes so revealing that they embarrass others.

A lady does not buy clothes a size too small in hopes she will one day be ale to wear them. <---checked! hahahha 

A lady does not feel the urge to wear eight rings on one hand <---this one is funny~~ 

A lady should never ask someone if she looks fat in something.<--will remember this..LOL 

If a lady is on diet, she does not talk about it at table. 

Once a lady's dinner knife has been dirtied, she never lets it touch the tablecloth.

A lady does not salt her food before tasting it. She would never insult the cook in that way.

A lady does not correct another person's grammar.

A lady consults the dictionary for correct spelling and definitions of words she uses.

A lady knows how to accept a compliment by saying "Thank you"

 

A lady never curses in front of others. <--another LOL 

A lady does not brag.

A lady does not whine.

A lady does not nag.

If

OMG!!!

how could i follow the 4 last one???hahahha...i always whine, nag..and sometimes brag...LOL...gosh..it is hard to be a lady...

I always thought that Emma is a real example of a lady  (n_n)

I couldnt go on yet...its tooo much restrictions!hahaha

I tend to break rules! ;p

that's all about being a lady from me... Lady of Lilacs~~ ♥

XOXO ♥

....books books books...and shelves..

Well, I just finish my chores for this morning...which is to find the books that have been borrowed..whether people have return it or not... So i have to got to each shelves and scan the book one by one...and look for the customize no....quite fun...for me..LOL...

Well, the bad thing is, I always end up with books to bring to my desk which is piling up already...hahaha...
But today, i found this 3 very interesting books...

1. The Seventy Wonders of Ancient World
2. How To Be A lady
3. Emotional intelligence

I was thinking of doing my post on one of the books... and the etiquette book on how to be a lady is quite an eye catcher for me... LOL
I need to learn that one~~~ :D

XOXO <3

...dreams dreams dreams...sweetdreams in a beautiful nightmares...

been dreaming a lot lately... usually I dont have any particular dreams when I asleep..but this week..i keep getting dreams..some feels weird, some feels heavenly, some feels like a nightmare..but mostly most of my dreams now are mix of those emotion and i end up waking in confusions~~~ hahhaha :D

Oh well....haven't been able to blog much nowadays...coz at work and I dont want people around me here to know that I do blog~~ ;p

Juz to be safe u noe...hahhaha...well, some of you understands why...
Right now I'm all alone, so it easier for me to write something before any of them came...

A Lot has happen i guess...to my friends...some are joyous and some are in grief... All I can say is..."Just smile and there's nothing you can't do" (n_n)

Oh ya.... remember the poem/or watsoever that i wrote about missing someone? That someone and I chat yesterday....he's asking about how I'm doing and I asked him the same...the questions still remains...why??? But i didnt dare to ask him...and I noe my mum is going to KK next month, so i try to asked him if I go to KK, will he meet me and bring me out again??? He said of course...then i asked would there be anyone that will be angry if we went out again...all he said is...dunno n dont care...
hmmm..how frustrating is that??? But I dont want to bring out the past..so i just let it go...but I' still curious though...keep asking myself why??

Nah...I'm hungry~~~ *stomach growl*
I'm a heavy breakfast kind of persom...so this whole week I didnt get my heavy breakfast and I end up feeling hungry and growling stomach when i get to work... It's just that I need to rush, all i can manage is to make the bento for my lunch...coz need to send my mum and my big sis to work first and it's very far from where i work now...*sigh*
I need food~~~~

XOXO <3

...gloom gloom gloom...

Sheeessshhhh~~~
Been feeling soooo glooomy at work today....
And now I noe why...
Lack of sugar in my blood!!hahahhaa..i guess
Been at home most of the time and i can get my hands on the chocolates or any sweet stuffs that i feel like getting...
but when I'm at work...i have nothing except the 2 ltr plain water that i brought from home...
feel sooo cranky...LOL
Eventhough I manage to dload 3 movies today, i didnt feel right..coz of the sugar thing... ;p
I guess i'm too used of getting sugar rush and when I didn't get any, I started going cranky..like a drug addict that are taken away from drugs i guess...hahaha..what a way to look at it...well, it's true i guess..
It must be how the drug addicts feels when they didnt get the chemicals that they want...

my drugs :p


So, starting tomorrow, I'll bring along with me some chocolates for emergency case of sugar-lacking....LOL
wish me luck guys! :D

XOXO <3

...cheeezzyyy week...

Ishashiburi minnasan~~~ (n_n)

Been a while...my broadband is kinda slow these days..what with all the downloads and stuffs...
been having cheese cake in a cup these few days...from The Loft..which my mum just brought from Langkawi... Oishi!!!

I've put some new movie link in my Mediafire folder...
Crows Zero II and also Naoko... where both of it is involved Miura Haruma~~~ *melts*

Ever dreamt of wanting someone so bad but it's impossible for you to have them??? *sigh*
Oh well, been feeling that way these few days with Miura Haruma....ROTFL...geez, i think i'm getting crazy..;p

Oh well...all these while I thought that when my mum starts to play fb and getting addicted to it...I never thought that that could backfire me...now, having problems with my mum coz she always nag me for dloading stuff and she can't open her farmville and cafe world fast enough to play or to save watever is cooking...bla bla bla...gosh~~ Sometimes i wonder, am I the one at fault here??? I try to let her play and use my lappy anytime she wants...but still..when my lappy gets lagg, she blamed me bcoz of it..when i dont even dload a single fiel at that time... Sometimes, i feels tired trying to get her approval of me...seems like she never satisfy enough of what i've done..sometimes she even makes me feels i'm worthless to her...
Oh well, maybe that's just me...been feeling the same way since I'm still a toddler...even Dad realized it..but then, he's there for me..now, not anymore... :(

Ah, tomorrow I'll be starting my SKP at my U library... I think I'll rest my case for now...

XOXO <3

...Overlapping lines...

Sometimes I feel like I don't need anyone
Sometimes I feel like I'll get by alone
Sometimes I feel like I'm all i need
Sometimes all I think I need is something to past my time

I used to think when I grow up I'll find my call
I used to think that I'll find the one that I love
I used to think that someday it'll be clear
I used to think that the day will be now

Now I'm more confuse than I used to be
I'm more curious than I could be
I'm still trying to find me


XOXO <3

....I see you XOXO....

Since after I've watch Gossip Girl Season 3 Ep8..i can't get rid of Mika's song in my head... I love the music and lyrics...It sounds beautiful...

Mika I See You

I'm sitting across from you
And dreaming of the things I do
I don't speak, you don't know me at all

For fear of what you might do
I say nothing but stare at you
And I'm dreaming
I'm trippin' over you

Truth be told
My problems old
You mean the world to be but you'll never know
You could be cruel to me
While we're risking the way that I see you
That I see you (3x)
That I see

Conversations
Not me at all
I'm hesitating
Only to fall
And I'm waiting, I'm hating everyone

Could it be you fell for me?
And any possible similarity
If its all, how would I know?
You never knew me at all but I see you
But I see you (4x)

I'm standing across from you (But I see you)
I've dreamt alone, now the dreams won't do (But I see you)
I'm standing across from you (But I see you)
I've dreamt alone, now the dreams won't do (But I see you)

Truth be told, my problems old
You mean the world to me
But you'll never know
You could be cruel to me
While we're risking the way that I see you
But I see you (4x)

I'm standing across from you (But I see you)
I've dreamt alone, now the dreams won't do (But I see you)
(4x)

But I see you
But I see you
But I see you

you can download this track from here:

Mika - I See You

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Gosh, been very tired this week...since mum not home, i've been doing all the house chores..double times... My big sis? haa, she's just providing the money to buy things for me to cook and watching tv...;p

Thankfully i could count on my lil bro a little to help me out...like hanging the laundry...

exhausted...

my left eye got problem...

my skins acne slightly getting ok, but still...

getting better in playing ave maria.. :D

Going to change my music school again...

I want a brand new violin... :(

I want a new hp...desperately~~~

that's all my rambling for today (^^,)

XOXO <3

...Life's It Is...

I used to walk this life

In the eyes of a child

Taking my time to explore every steps that i took

as my steps gets bigger and wider
my pace began to increase
now i'm used to run in every steps that i took

As I run
my life began to pass me by so quickly
I lost track of time and i'm heading for a cliff

I fall to the ground
Shattering a piece of myself
I fumble back up

I try to walk
But i can't seem to find my way
All i do is just run
And it's hard for me to stop and slow down

I may fall again
May shattered more of me
But I will keep getting up
and walk my life in the pace that i'm used to now

 

Our dinner last night...having a grilling time! (n_n)

mum is out of town so the four of us having great time enjoying ourselves :D

XOXO <3

...a magical rendition of something unexplicable...

actually...

i dont know what so magical in what i'm about to write

Watching La Corda D'Oro Primo Passo again..the part where Kahoko and Len play Ave Maria duet

Gosh..i love that piece! It's so beautiful!!!

I want to learn how to do the vibrato~~~ but my fingering is still sucks!

Len Tsukomori & Kahoko Hino Ave maria Duet

Lonely
feeling quite alone now...
but it's not quiet...
accompanied by the sound of different birds at the back of the house
dont know why they so noisy today..singing continuously..
the crickets joins in, making the beautiful melody of nature...

Some people make believe that they contend with loneliness
When actually they don't...they are not alone actually...
They accompanied themselves with other living things besides human..
They have cats, dogs or fish...or any pets to accompanied their lonely feelings
being lonely is dreadful
I admit it

Nobody wants to be lonely

Nobody wants to cry

My body's longing to hold you

So bad it hurts inside

-Christina Aguilera feat Ricky Martin-

But life always have a plan for us and we can't escape from feeling lonely as it teaches us to be grateful of what we had

Been thinking that maybe
All the players out there..playgirl or playboy...
I guess they are terrified of being lonely
That's why they can't seem to stick to one person and be faithful
Coz if they're being faithful but the spouse betrayed them and leave them, they would end up alone..
Well, that's just my opinion...
Let's assume that's true
I guess players are more fragile than us...
What i mean by us is, the people who dare to take chances of being faithful and end up being dump and alone
At least we take the risk and held up to our believe that true love exist and being loyal to the one you love
I want to pity all the players out there..but I can't
Coz they're just bunch of stupid people who are to scared to face up the truth and take the risk in their life!

Sorry if i offend anyone, but it's just my mind thinking and reeling inside my head

Hopefully this will be a beautiful day for everyone~~~

XOXO <3

....falling for pretty faces....

Been a while didn't heard from SS501

I've downloaded their newest Mini Album..Rebirth!!!!

Gosh~~ they r so damn hot in their new MV called 'Love like this'

 They are so pretty~~~

Oh man~~~

Are there any pretty guy out there for me??? LOL

Keep falling for the pretty boy...

List of the guys that I've fallen for:

Kanata Hongo

He's sooo pretty eventhough he didn't smile~~~ Started crushing on him since NANA the Movie ;D

and love him more in Seigi No Mikata *melts*

Yamashita Tomohisa (NewS)

 

ooo~~~ he is my dream guy~~

Acting, singing, dancing~~~ a complete package~~ *melts again*

Miura Haruma

 

First saw him in Gokusen 3..as a rebel of course..and he's so kakkoiee!!! *melts a thousand times*

then, watch him in Bloody Monday...but the one I like most is Koizora...i practically bawl my eyes out watching that movie~~~ >.<

Jo GyunHyun (Super Junior)

He's soooo pretty!!! My recent crush for the pretty guy~~~ OMG, he just soooo pretty... I want him!!! LOL

Oh god... Why are they sooo pretty??? Guess my weakness is pretty guy...hahaha

But then, i dont really care bout looks in reality...the inner beauty and personality is much more important for me... (n_n)

XOXO<3

....new addictions in my page...

Got introduce last week by my friend, Faizah...

Looklet~~~

Gosh, I'm so addicted to it now..keep designing the looks that i'd love to wear myself.. :D

my first design...not that good..juz started..LOL

second looks..feels like grammy much..just playing with the dress...

i love the looks! Wish i could pull it off myself! :D

Actually, i was looking for a sweet dress for this look..but didnt found any that could caught my eyes..so end up using this piece~

 

This looks is inspired by Blake Lively and it became an instant hit in my page..How cool is that? LOL

This looks is inspires by Demi Lovato... Just love the combinations of dress and jacket that she always put on... (n_n)

and I'm home alone now... Mum and lil sis went for holiday in Langkawi...and didnt bring me along..tsk tsk tsk... I was asked to take care of the house and foods for my big sis and my lil bros... why always me??? *sigh*

Oh well..better than nothing to do right?

Oh heck... I think i'm gonna practice my scaling as my teacher told me to...

XOXO <3

....yesterday came passing by....

I dont know why suddenly today..of all days..I suddenly wondering what type of person i used to be when i'm young...
Suddenly, thinking of those days when i'm in kindergarten... I used to go to Sunny Hill's... I remembered that back then there are this one girl who always bully me.. I dont know why she hates me so much...I never bother her life, in fact I always end up giving her my stuffs..esp new stuffs... When she saw me with a new stationary or anything new, she would come to me looking sad and asking for sympathy... Maybe I'm stupid, coz i always fall for it...Then, after she gets what she wants from me, she would start ignoring me again and pretend she didnt know me and showing off the new stuff that she gets from me, saying that she just bought it to her friends...
Actually, i dont really mind that part.. I just want to be friends with her..that's all...But the incident that i would never forget is, there's one day..while we were waiting for our van to go home (we ride in the same van), the place that we get to wait is like a bus stop but with all the gates around it..and our teacher will wait with us...that day, i was playing with the entrance gate..by that time, the entrance gate is just above my waist...suddenly, this girl came to me.. At first i thought she wants to play with me..But suddenly, she push the gate hard until i can barely breathe..and i was about to cry while looking at her.. she just smile with her wicked smile and keep pushing... I was gasping for air by the time she let go of the gate...Our teacher turn to look at me when that girl already sitting down... I was thinking of telling my teacher about what just happen, but then, she always accuse me of lying in front of our teacher..coz when she took my things i did try to get it back by telling our teacher..but she is very clever by that time, she marked the things after she took it so she can claim that that's hers and I'm lying and i was trying to steal her things... I dont know why i was so naive and stupid back then... I hate her...But i never seem to hold my grudges long...So by the next day, usually i forget about it... She keeps doing that to me until one day, this new girl enter our class and she only want to make friends with me... So most of my time i spend with my new friend and fortunately our house is very near... So the mean girl was kind of jealous and she did try to steal my friend from me..Well, thats how i look at it back then..she's trying to steal my friend coz she doesn't want anyone to be friends with me... At one point, i guess she did win...She manage to steal my only friend...

During the first year of my kindergarten, i think there are no male students..so in the second year, finally there are boys around... That mean girl is still in my class, but my friend that she manage to steal in the other class...and it turns out she kinda dump that girl, if u could say it that way..LOL... Somehow i think she just want to torture my life...
So, with the boys around, I dont know why, but I made friend with the boys quite easily..maybe because i was quite wild back then.. Used to play with my cuzzies everyday whom are all boys... I still remember these three boys that i'm quite close to... Lets give them initials.. the cute malay boy called I, the skinny iban boy called L and the tall bidayuh boy called R... I is quite popular among the girls there..coz he's cute and all... But he's close with me coz our sisters are friends and in the same class.. His sister, as i remembered, is very beautiful and nice...she likes me a lot...she even scolded her brother if he teased me... So, that mean girl was trying to be my friend just to join my group of friends... At my table, there are I, L R and this one cute chinese girl called S... we always seems to laugh over silly things and teachers always scolded us for not paying attention..what can i say, we still kids! LOL
So, the mean girl try to join our table saying that she have no friends...the others just look at me and i asked L if its ok with them...so from that day on, she joins our table... Since she join the table, I became silent... I cant talk or laugh as i used to with them...she would stare at me or kick my leg down the table if i talk to any of the guys... Guess she just cant stand to see I'm happy huh?

Maybe I am an idiot... I'm too naive, innocent and i couldn't stand up for myself.... But when i try to look at it now, maybe i'm not scared.. I was just trying to get by with everyone peacefully.. i just want people to like me...That's all that I'm asking for...For people to love being my friends... And i guess I'm still much the same inside... Coz I did experience the same kind of situation again over last 2 years..the different is just the girl is not mean in front of people and me...she looks very innocent and very nice..but turns out that she's a hypocrite!

Why do I keep ending up with that kind of people??? I know that i shouldn't sulk or rant about it..coz I know, it teaches me on how to deal with these kind of peoples and makes me stronger... But sometimes, i'm just tired...

Well, at least i did found a lot of true friends on my way here... and i love all of them!!! Thanks for sticking with me you all... You just don't know how much you guys mean to me... I wish i could repay all of your kindness to me... and i really2 appreciate our friendships! Life goes on and we're moving forward..but you all still remains in my heart forever!

p/s: to all the bully out there, thank you for making me stronger...and i hope one day you'll realize that you can't forever making people feel weak and useless...even though it's you that have no confidence at all... Eventually you'll end up realizing it when you're in our shoes... Cheerios!

XOXO <3

...more is less, less is more...

Seriously

I need to take more pictures for my blog...

I bet its kinda boring with all my ramblings right???

*sigh*

wish i have the gadgets to get more photos

I want one~~~

*tsk tsk tsk*

 All the pics from my phone are very blurry and unclear...

Oh well, i'll try to look up for something...

Btw..check out this movie trailer

It will be released around Valentine's day next year..

and it's called 'Valentine's Day' :D

Valentine's Day Trailer

i couldnt get the embedded video..

but the actors are all great!!!

they have Anne hathaway, emma robert, julia robert, jessica alba, jessica biel, bradley cooper, taylor lautner, taylor swift, queen latifah, jamie foxx and so on~~~

I'm so stocked!!!

I can't wait for Valentine's!!

Although i noe, i'll be dateless...ahakz! :P

Oh hell...i dont mind...good movie and good books are always the best companion...

Shoot!

Maybe i do mind, a little...hahahaha...feel kinda lonely when you saw couples evrywhere with people sellings flowers and girls getting gifts, teddy bear, chocs...when will i ever experience one??? LOL

I'm getting silly coz i havent sleep yet...

Well, better try to hit the sack now...

toodaloo~~

XOXO <3

..maybe....just because....

I didnt feel sleepy yet..but my back hurts for sitting up too long...LOL :D

Day by day

I try to change my attitude

I'm looking in a different perspective

I try to make it better

Little did I know

What I've done is just a waste of time

making a fool of myself

My perspective is just too speculative

for you

Once I thought that i've found my wings

I was taking steps to take my flight

You couldn't be happy for me

All you want to do is to bring me down

I used to look up to you

When i was still green in this stage of life

But you have lead me astray

Making my life miserable

Hurting the ones i loved

Hurting me

Nothing satisfy you

not when i'm having the time of my life

you just couldn't take it

When people look at me rather than you

Coz it's always about you in your world

I didnt mean to take your spotlight away

I've never asked for it

But your lies and hypocrite attitude

Makes me wonder of the kind of person you are

And all i'm going to do is

Enjoy the spotlight while watching u crumble down

You always makes me seem like i'm the nasty one

But soon, people will find out your charade

Always think that you're almighty

But honey, we are the same

You are no better than me

I guess I'm a survivor

Coz I still hold on to my virtue and my heart

But you, you keep swaying back and forth

Still hanging by a thread that you thought would hold you forever

It doesnt even matter anymore

Coz I'm saying goodbye now

You're on your own to find your new victim

And I'm living my life as I should be

naraj 09'

XOXO <3

.....weirdedness in my sleep nest....

Last night, i sleep early after helping out my mum with the cupcakes...yummy...i've tasted it...

K, today aku nak cakap bahasa melayu plak...

Malam tadi aku tdo n mimpi...masa dlm mimpi tu, aku rasa takut sangat...aku rsa nak lari tp xdpt lari jauh..kaki aku wat hal lam mimpi tu...aku mimpi dipaksa oleh someone..tp xingat dpaksa utk apa...aku try lari tp xdapat...tseksa la sgt mimpi tu...ngeri pun ada...then aku tbangun...aku g la cuci kaki lagi..and amik wudhu'...aku sambung tdo...pastu aku mimpi lagi...mimpi ni plak lain...aku mimpi aku dlm keta..aku dok kat blakang and aku tengok blakang je...aku xtau la spa drive..tp aku rasa someone dlm family aku la...aku mimpi yg ktorg drive time mlm...aku tgk la keta2 kat blakang keta ktorg yg laju2 n potong keta kitorg...then aku nampak dua org budak ni jln kat tepi jln..pastu aku xtau nape budak sorang tu gi jalan ke tgh jln...pastu ada keta laju dr blakang budak tu..budak tu g baring kat jalan..aku nampak cahaya dr mata dia jer time tu..mcm cahaya dr mata kucing...pastu dtg lagi satu keta, laju gak, keta ni plak pi langgar budak yg dh xmcm budak tu..mcm kucing pun ada dh...sbb dia tetiba je mengecik....kwn dia tadi dok tgk jer..mcm xda pa2...keta yg langgar budak tu tadi plak, potong keta kitorg and tetiba bila keta tu depan keta ktorg, keta tu tbalik..*memang sungguh pelik rasa mimpi ni n x masuk akal*...pastu, kat bwah keta tbalik tu tadi ada badan budak yg dilanggar tu...n tetiba ada sorang nenek ni pi amik badan budak tu and makan...ewww....aku xtau nape aku mimpi camtu..tgh cta antu pun xda...pastu aku xtau nape aku bleh ada kat sebelah nenek tu...nenek tu bgtau, aku xnak bg badan aku kat dia, so dia makan badan budak tu la sbg ganti...pastu tetiba aku kat dlm satu supermarket...ada baby yg br lahir n nenek tu tadi nak amik baby tu dr aku...aku xtau la baby sape tu...then, ada sorang laki ni (aku xkenal, muka pun xnampak), bgtau kat aku, bg jer baby tu kat nenek tu...jd aku bg jer laa..then laki tu tadi bawak aku gi bli brg2 untuk baby tu...pampers dia, btol susu dia, susu and suma la brg keperluan bayi..aku xpla tnya wat pa...aku ekot je dia bli...pastu, dia bawak aku g sbuah bilik mcm nursery...n bayi tadi tu ada kat situ...n laki tu  bgtau kat aku, nenek tu dh kena kurung sbb nenek tu ada masalah mental...pastu aku pon tbangun...

Sebenarnya, aku xpaham la mimpi tu...skejap mcm mimpi ngeri, skejap mcm mimpi merepek, skejap plak mcm mimpi happy ending...agak merepek laa....LOL
Mimpi2 tu wat aku tdo xlena...bgn pagi tadi, rasa penat je..kalo dpt, nak tdo balik...tp tpaksa bgn nak wat bfast utk org rumah...pastu nak g kelas violin...

I think i'm gonna stick in using english for the time being...kinda tired to translate the words in my head...LOL..*sheepish grin*
Next month i was thinking on changing my violin school..again...*sigh*
Well, as my fav violin teacher that i have now told me that i'm the only student that he teach..bcoz all of his students are given to our old violin teacher, Mr M...so, my fav Violin teacher, Mr K told me that he want to quit from that school..so i decided to quit too coz i dont want to go back to that lousy teacher... Maybe i'm gonna arrange my enrolment to that new school b4 next month... I had to lie to the school i'm in now..coz they keep asking why i want to quit...and i dont want them to blame Mr K for quitting...so i told them that i'm going to be very busy next month and decided to stop...and they thought that i was going to stop for a while only...guess i have to find out a way to tell them the truth...*sigh*.... Guilt trap...always gets to me...
I dont know why, but it was so easy for me to feel guilty even though it's not my fault...haizzz~~~

Looking forward for new video from Demi Lovato - Remember December
and also Paramore - Brick by boring brick...i love the songs!!!! <3 

Hmmm...my head went dry of words now....I'll write again when there's something in my head that needs to get out..;p

maybe it's too late already, but Happy Samhain everyone...i forgot to wish last night...

XOXO <3