...Could it be pride or phobia?...

Been growing up reading, living and practically try to be in one of the literature books.

As a girl, I can't help but to fall in love with Pride & Prejudice...

and as everyone else did, I fall in love with Mr Darcy...

I've been dreaming and looking for my very own Mr Darcy...

But unfortunately, living in this reality, no man as gentleman and as loving though with a pride of his own, exist..

I gave up on that idea long ago...even though I loved imagining that he do exist... ;p

Pride and Prejudice started with how Mr Darcy watch and gave a prideful remarks on Elizabeth Bennet...and how Elizabeth Bennet have a very prejudice feelings towards Mr Darcy after hearing that remarks...

and my story starts with a prejudice feeling towards him...and him, with a pride look on his face while looking at me...

and now...I guess I've found my Mr Darcy *big grin*

and as the real Mr Darcy by Jane Austen, he ran away after he felt his feelings towards Elizabeth grew stronger and doesnt want Caroline to keep hurting Elizabeth's feelings...and my Mr Darcy, ran away because he said he was scared that he'll hurt me... :(

 Real Mr Darcy is full of pride and confidence except in a matter of Elizabeth...

and my Mr Darcy is full of pride but lacks of confidence in my matter...

In my point of view, he really have a low self-esteem...but in front of me only...

but a very strong pride in front of others...

and that low self-esteem is caused by his pride i guess...or his phobia from previous relationship...

and I guess I'm not going to know until he can resolve on his own...just like when real Mr Darcy come to realize that he really needs to be with Elizabeth...

and I hope my Mr Darcy will too~ XD

naraj 10'