losing hope

Sad, beautiful tragic love affair

Love...
I never thought that I would fall for him
I never thought that I would end up loving him
I never thought that I would love again

I fall for him
Fall for the idea of the future he keep telling me of
Fall for the idea of getting engaged and married in a short time
Fall for the idea of living together soon in a Halal way
Fall for the idea of a mature part of him

But I guess
once the feeling is lost
no matter how i tried to begged
he wont come back

I guess love just lost
I guess my life is just a circle of people abandoning me
I guess I'm not worth for anyone to stay
I guess I am not fit to be love

Coz in the end,
they would say I was trying to change them
in the end,
they would put all the blame on me when everything was being discussed
in the end,
I'm the only one who is stupid enough to be loyal
in the end,
I'm the only one left fighting
in the end,
it's only me alone.