Unlove

How do people do it? Really..

How do you go on and live your life and leaving the person you love and devoted to just like that?

How to stop loving someone?

I only know one way before...because i had to...and it by killing my heart and turn it into ice.. Emotionless..dead heart...

Never thought i would be the one leaving and its killing me everyday...and i tried to kill my heart everyday since that day...

This hurts too much...i dont think i can make it this time around

-Naraj2017-

Goodbye Agony

Heaven's gone, the battle's won
I had to say goodbye
Lived and learned from every fable
Written by your mind
And I wonder how to move on
From all I had inside
Place my cards upon the table
In blood I draw the line
I've given all my pride

Living a life of misery
Always there, just underneath
Haunting me, quietly alone
It’s killing me, killing me
Dead and gone, what's done is done
You were all I had become
I'm letting go of what I once believed
So goodbye agony

I watch the stars and setting suns
As the years are passing by
I never knew that hope was fatal
Until I looked it in the eye
And now I'm not sure I am able
To reach the other side
Casting out the light

Living a life of misery
Always there, just underneath
Haunting me, quietly alone
It’s killing me, killing me
Dead and gone, what's done is done
You were all I had become
I'm letting go of what I once believed
So goodbye agony
Goodbye agony

Not alone in forgiving
The faithful and the blind
Innocence is forsaken
I leave 'em all behind
And then I see that even angels never die

Living a life of misery
Always there, just underneath
Haunting me, quietly alone
It’s killing me, killing me
Dead and gone, what's done is done
You were all I had become
I'm letting go of what I once believed
So goodbye agony
Goodbye agony

Clean

The drought was the very worst
When the flowers that we'd grown together died of thirst
It was months, and months of back and forth
You're still all over me like a wine-stained dress I can't wear anymore

Hung my head as I lost the war, and the sky turned black like a perfect storm

Rain came pouring down when I was drowning
That's when I could finally breathe
And by morning gone was any trace of you,
I think I am finally clean

There was nothing left to do
When the butterflies turned to dust that covered my whole room
So I punched a hole in the roof
Let the flood carry away all my pictures of you

The water filled my lungs, I screamed so loud but no one heard a thing

Rain came pouring down when I was drowning
That's when I could finally breathe
And by morning, gone was any trace of you,
I think I am finally clean
I think I am finally clean
Said I think I am finally clean

10 months sober, I must admit
Just because you're clean don't mean you don't miss it
10 months older, I won't give in
Now that I'm clean I'm never gonna risk it

The drought was the very worst
When the flowers that we'd grown together died of thirst

Rain came pouring down when I was drowning
That's when I could finally breathe
And by morning gone was any trace of you,
I think I am finally clean

Rain came pouring down when I was drowning
That's when I could finally breathe
And by morning gone was any trace of you
I think I am finally clean
Finally clean
Think I'm finally clean
Think I'm finally clean

...this is me understanding...

Everything is not always what we want
Every single day is a battle for everyone
Its not that i'm leaving you behind
Its just that i've understood what we've become

I am understanding you
I am understanding us
I am understanding me
I am understanding the future

I'm giving my heart away by calling you dear
I didnt realize that you've come this far
You said you don't wanna hurt me
Well honey,having what we have now its killing me

You told me yourself we will never be together
You told me yourself we dont have a future
So tell me why should i stay and let my heart sore
By standing besides you and know we're gonna be astray

Its complicated is what you always said
And i know you're trying to straighten up your life
But i dont think i'm strong enough
To stay there and then watch you walk away

If being like this is the kind of friendship you wish for
Then I'd rather not board this ship at all
Coz my heart is fragile
Despite the coldness that surrounds it now

-naraj©2012-

xoxo ♥

...the end...

Its time to let go
Its time for me to protect this heart of mine
Its time for me to face the truth
Its time for me to realize it wasnt true
Not with you

-naraj©2012-

xoxo ♥