I Don't Wanna Live Forever

Been sittin' eyes wide open behind these four walls, hopin' you'll call

It's just a cruel existence like it's no point hopin' at all

Baby, baby, I feel crazy

Up all night, all night and every day

Give me somethin', oh, but you say nothin'

What is happenin' to me?

I don't wanna live forever

'Cause I know I'll be livin' in vain

And I don't wanna fit wherever

I just wanna keep callin' your name

Until you come back home

I'm sittin' eyes wide open and I got one thing stuck in my mind

Wondering if I dodged a bullet or just lost the love of my life

Baby, baby, I feel crazy

Up all night, all night and every day

I gave you something, but you gave me nothing

What is happening to me?

I've been looking sad in all the nicest places

I see you around in all these empty faces

Up all night, all night and every day

I've been looking sad in all the nicest places

Give me somethin', oh, but you say nothin'

Now I'm in a cab, I tell him where your place is

What is happenin' to me?

1000 times

Again again

I let it go, let it go

Cover my mouth

Don't let a single word slip out

Wouldn't wanna tell you, no

Tell you, no

Nothing could be worse

Than the risk of

Losing what I don't have now

I'm weaker by the minute, though

Is it so bad if I wanna cry out

That I would die to make you mine

Bleed me dry almost every time

But I don't mind, no I don't mind it

I would come back 1000 times

Make me wait forever

Push me away and tell me never

I don't mind, no I don't mind it

I would come back 1000 times

Tell me how you gonna turn it around? (Not Enough)

I'm sorry if this hurts you,

But I tried to keep what we had once

I was wrong, it wasn't keeping me awake.

You didn't listen, you didn't listen.

You didn't hear me, you didn't hear me 

When I said I want more I got no more. 

You weren't stealing me away, oh. 

All the memory's that we're losing, 

All the time that I spent with you everyday 

I think is running down the drain. 

I'm feeling that we're fading. 

Don't make this as hard as you think it would be, 

It's a lot easier than it seems 

And I can feel we're falling down slowly, slowly. 

I can see us starting to drown, can't stop it now. 

I can see we're burning out so show me, show me. 

How you gonna turn it around? Because... 

It's not enough, it's not enough 

To give me what it is I want. 

It's not enough, it's not enough 

To get me everything I need.

Four Leaf Clover

Boy, you let me down
I tried too hard & I feel numb now
That crooked smile
& your charm that drew me in
Your beautiful eyes,
Can hide so many things

You were my Four Leaf Clover
My pure white dove
You were my lightning strike
& my knock on wood
My hope & my faith
My luck & love
Yeah!
You were my shooting star
That lit up the sky
Then you broke the mirror
& my heart died
No hope & no faith
No luck, no love
Just ordinary
Oh oh oh
Just ordinary now
Oh oh oh

Oh!
I'm not crying
But I thought you were the perfect thing
For me
Don't get me wrong
You can be wonderful sometimes
But then you're lost
And you can't look me in the eyes

Never Play

Never play by the stairs, your bound to fall down 

Never play by the hillside, You might slip and break your crown 

Never play by the fire, It's a danger to your health 

Never play by the wall, You might fall and break yourself 

Never play by the river, You might tumble in and drown 

Never play by the fields, You'll get filthy, dirty and brown 

Never play by yourself It's a danger to be alone 

Never stray too far away, It's not safe outside of home 

I didn't ask to be born 

I don't think I'll ask to die 

I didn't ask for the ground beneath my feet 

I didn't ask for the sky 

All that I ask, My darling 

All I really ask of you 

All that I ask, My darling 

Is that you stay here with me.

Youth

Shadows settle on the place, that you left.
Our minds are troubled by the emptiness.
Destroy the middle, it's a waste of time.
From the perfect start to the finish line.

And if you're still breathing, you're the lucky ones.
'Cause most of us are heaving through corrupted lungs.
Setting fire to our insides for fun
Collecting names of the lovers that went wrong
The lovers that went wrong.

We are the reckless,
We are the wild youth
Chasing visions of our futures
One day we'll reveal the truth
That one will die before he gets there.

And if you're still bleeding, you're the lucky ones.
'Cause most of our feelings, they are dead and they are gone.
We're setting fire to our insides for fun.
Collecting pictures from a flood that wrecked our home,
It was a flood that wrecked this home.

And you caused it,
And you caused it,
And you caused it

Well I've lost it all, I'm just a silhouette,
I'm a lifeless face that you'll soon forget,
And my eyes are damp from the words you left,
Ringing in my head, when you broke my chest.
Ringing in my head, when you broke my chest.

And if you're in love, then you are the lucky one,
'Cause most of us are bitter over someone.
Setting fire to our insides for fun,
To distract our hearts from ever missing them.
But I'm forever missing him.

Goodbye Agony

Heaven's gone, the battle's won
I had to say goodbye
Lived and learned from every fable
Written by your mind
And I wonder how to move on
From all I had inside
Place my cards upon the table
In blood I draw the line
I've given all my pride

Living a life of misery
Always there, just underneath
Haunting me, quietly alone
It’s killing me, killing me
Dead and gone, what's done is done
You were all I had become
I'm letting go of what I once believed
So goodbye agony

I watch the stars and setting suns
As the years are passing by
I never knew that hope was fatal
Until I looked it in the eye
And now I'm not sure I am able
To reach the other side
Casting out the light

Living a life of misery
Always there, just underneath
Haunting me, quietly alone
It’s killing me, killing me
Dead and gone, what's done is done
You were all I had become
I'm letting go of what I once believed
So goodbye agony
Goodbye agony

Not alone in forgiving
The faithful and the blind
Innocence is forsaken
I leave 'em all behind
And then I see that even angels never die

Living a life of misery
Always there, just underneath
Haunting me, quietly alone
It’s killing me, killing me
Dead and gone, what's done is done
You were all I had become
I'm letting go of what I once believed
So goodbye agony
Goodbye agony

Let It All Go

I've been sleepless at night
Coz I dont know how I feel
I've been waiting on you
Just to say something real

There's a light on the road and I think u know
Morning has come and i have to go

I dont know why, i dont know why
we need to break so hard
i dont know why we break so hard

but if we strong enough to let it in,
we strong enough to let it go,
let it all go, let it all go,let it all out now
let it all go, let it all go,let it all out now

if i look back to the start now I know
i see everything true
u steal the fire in my heart my darling
but i'm not burning for you

we started it wrong and i think you know
we waited too long, now i have to go

I dont know why, i dont know why
we need to break so hard
i dont know why we break so hard

but if we strong enough to let it in,
we strong enough to let it go,
let it all go, let it all go,let it all out now
let it all go, let it all go,let it all out now

Who says, who says
who says, who says

Who says truth is beauty after all
and who says love should break us when we fall

but if we strong enough to let it in,
we strong enough to let it go,
let it all go, let it all go,let it all out now
let it all go, let it all go,let it all out now

Clean

The drought was the very worst
When the flowers that we'd grown together died of thirst
It was months, and months of back and forth
You're still all over me like a wine-stained dress I can't wear anymore

Hung my head as I lost the war, and the sky turned black like a perfect storm

Rain came pouring down when I was drowning
That's when I could finally breathe
And by morning gone was any trace of you,
I think I am finally clean

There was nothing left to do
When the butterflies turned to dust that covered my whole room
So I punched a hole in the roof
Let the flood carry away all my pictures of you

The water filled my lungs, I screamed so loud but no one heard a thing

Rain came pouring down when I was drowning
That's when I could finally breathe
And by morning, gone was any trace of you,
I think I am finally clean
I think I am finally clean
Said I think I am finally clean

10 months sober, I must admit
Just because you're clean don't mean you don't miss it
10 months older, I won't give in
Now that I'm clean I'm never gonna risk it

The drought was the very worst
When the flowers that we'd grown together died of thirst

Rain came pouring down when I was drowning
That's when I could finally breathe
And by morning gone was any trace of you,
I think I am finally clean

Rain came pouring down when I was drowning
That's when I could finally breathe
And by morning gone was any trace of you
I think I am finally clean
Finally clean
Think I'm finally clean
Think I'm finally clean

Linger

If you, if you could return, don't let it burn, don't let it fade.

I'm sure I'm not being rude, but it's just your attitude,
It's tearing me apart, It's ruining everything.

I swore, I swore I would be true, and honey, so did you.
So why were you holding her hand? Is that the way we stand?
Were you lying all the time? Was it just a game to you?

But I'm in so deep. You know I'm such a fool for you.
You got me wrapped around your finger, ah, ha, ha.
Do you have to let it linger? Do you have to, do you have to,
Do you have to let it linger?

Oh, I thought the world of you.
I thought nothing could go wrong,
But I was wrong. I was wrong.
If you, if you could get by, trying not to lie,
Things wouldn't be so confused and I wouldn't feel so used,
But you always really knew, I just wanna be with you.

But I'm in so deep. You know I'm such a fool for you.
You got me wrapped around your finger, ah, ha, ha.
Do you have to let it linger? Do you have to, do you have to,
Do you have to let it linger?

You know I'm such a fool for you.
You got me wrapped around your finger, ah, ha, ha.
Do you have to let it linger? 

Do you have to, do you have to,
Do you have to let it linger?

Sober

And I don't know
This could break my heart or save me
Nothing's real
Until you let go completely
So here I go with all my thoughts I've been saving
So here I go with all my fears weighing on me

And I don't know
I could crash and burn but maybe
At the end of this road I might catch a glimpse of me
So I won't worry about my timing, I want to get it right
No comparing, second guessing, no not this time

Three months and I'm still breathing
Been a long road since those hands I left my tears in but I know
It's never really over, no

Wake up

Three months and I'm still standing here
Three months and I'm getting better yeah
Three months and I still am

Three months and it's still harder now
Three months I've been living here without you now
Three months yeah, three months

Three months and I'm still breathing
Three months and I still remember it
Three months and I wake up

Three months and I'm still sober
Picked all my weeds but kept the flowers

All You Had To Do Was Stay

People like you always want back the love they gave away
And people like me wanna believe you when you say you've changed
The more I think about it now the less I know
All I know is that you drove us off the road

Stay
Hey, all you had to do was stay
Had me in the palm of your hand
Then why'd you have to go and lock me out when I let you in
Stay,  now you say you want it back 
Now that it's just too late
Well, it could've been easy
All you had to do was stay

Here you are now, calling me up, but I don't know what to say
I've been picking up the pieces of the mess you made
People like you always want back the love they pushed aside
But people like me are gone forever when you say goodbye


Let me remind
You this was what you wanted
You ended it
You were all I wanted
But not like this
Not like this
Oh, all you had to do was stay

Hey, all you had to do was stay
Had me in the palm of your hand
Then why'd you have to go and lock me out when I let you in
Stay, hey, now you say you want it back 
Now that it's just too late
Well, it could've been easy
All you had to do was stay

Ignorance

If I'm a bad person, you don't like me
Well I guess I'll make my own way
It's a circle
A mean cycle
I can't excite you anymore
Where's your gavel? Your jury?
What's my offense this time?
You're not a judge but if you're gonna judge me
Well sentence me to another life

Don't wanna hear your sad songs
I don't wanna feel your pain
When you swear it's all my fault
Cause you know we're not the same 
We're not the same 
Oh we're not the same
Yeah the friends who stuck together
We wrote our names in blood
But I guess you can't accept that the change is good
It's good 

Well you treat me just like another stranger
Well it's nice to meet you sir
I guess I'll go
I best be on my way out
You treat me just like another stranger
Well it's nice to meet you sir
I guess I'll go
I best be on my way out

Ignorance is your new best friend

This is the best thing that could've happened
Any longer and I wouldn't have made it
It's not a war no, it's not a rapture
I'm just a person but you can't take it
The same tricks that, that once fooled me
They won't get you anywhere
I'm not the same kid from your memory
Well now I can fend for myself

Don't wanna hear your sad songs
I don't wanna feel your pain
When you swear it's all my fault
Cause you know we're not the same 
We're not the same 
Oh we're not the same
Yeah we used to stick together
We wrote our names in blood
But I guess you can't accept that the change is good 
It's good

Well you treat me just like another stranger
Well it's nice to meet you sir
I guess I'll go
I best be on my way out
You treat me just like another stranger
Well it's nice to meet you sir
I guess I'll go
I best be on my way out

Playing God

Can't make my own decisions
Or make any with precision
Well maybe you should tie me up
So I don't go where you don't want me

You say that I've been changing
That I'm not just simply aging
Yeah how could that be logical?
Just keep on cramming ideas down my throat

You don't have to believe me
But the way I, way I see it
Next time you point a finger
I might have to bend it back
Or break it, break it off
Next time you point a finger
I'll point you to the mirror

If God's the game that you're playing
Well we must get more acquainted
Because it has to be so lonely
To be the only one who's holy

It's just my humble opinion
But it's one that I believe in
You don't deserve a point of view
If the only thing you see is you

You don't have to believe me
But the way I, way I see it
Next time you point a finger
I might have to bend it back
Or break it, break it off
Next time you point a finger
I'll point you to the mirror

This is the last second chance
(I'll point you to the mirror)
I'm half as good as it gets
(I'll point you to the mirror)
I'm on both sides of the fence
(I'll point you to the mirror)
Without a hint of regret
I'll hold you to it

I know you don't believe me
But the way I, way I see it
Next time you point a finger
I might have to bend it back
Or break it, break it off
Next time you point a finger
I'll point you to the mirror

I know you won't believe me
But the way I, way I see it
Next time you point a finger
I might have to bend it back
Or break it, break it off
Next time you point a finger
I'll point you to the mirror

Sweeter than you ever were

I saw it in the news
You told me they were wrong
And I stood up for you
'Cause I believed you were the one

You had all the chances in the world
To let me know the truth
What the hell's wrong with you?

Are you even listening when I talk to you?
Do you even care what I'm going through?
Your eyes stare and they're staring right through me
You're right there but it's like you never knew me

Do you even know how much it hurt,
That you gave up on me to be with her?
Revenge is sweeter than you ever were

I'm so mad at you right now
I can't even find the words
And you're on the way down
I can't wait to see you burn
You try to make me hate that girl
When I should be hating you
What the hell's wrong with you?

Are you even listening when I talk to you?
Do you even care what I'm going through?
Your eyes stare and they're staring right through me
You're right there but it's like you never knew me

Do you even know how much it hurt,
That you gave up on me to be with her?
Revenge is sweeter than you ever were
(than you ever were)
Revenge is sweeter than you ever were

Nothing can save you now that it's over
I guess that you'll find out when you're no one
Don't say you're sorry now 'cause I just don't care

Nothing can save you now, nothing
Nothing can save you now, nothing

Are you even listening when I talk to you?
Do you even care what I'm going through?
You're eyes stare and they're staring right through me
You're right there but it's like you never knew me

Do you even know how much it hurt,
That you gave up on me to be with her?
Revenge is sweeter than you ever were
(than you ever were)
Revenge is sweeter than you ever were

Proved You Wrong

Cold as ice, your words cut like knives
I deserve a prize, for sticking around this long

I’m nothing without you
And no one loves me like you do
Always left me feeling black and blue
Well this can go on and on and on


But I hey I’m breaking free just watch me walk away
Had your hooks in me but I escaped
I don’t need excuses
Done with your abuses
Telling me that I’m not strong baby
Hey just listen to the song cause
I proved you wrong


It’s easier letting go of us
Said I didn’t even have the guts
Yeah, here I am backing up
I’m taking my heart back cause I’ve had enough


Hey I’m done with you and all the lies you made
You were such a mistake

Archis Blood

I called it quits, fell to the ground
I hid every welt, I made every round
I drank 'til dark, my family cried
Trouble, I find, chooses her side

But I had enough, I had enough
I had enough, I had enough, I had enough

Don't let them win
Don't let them get under your skin, into your head
They're full of it
You're full of life,

You'll proved them right if you're giving up


So let's go for blood
Let's go for blood, let's go for blood
Let's go for blood, let's go for blood

I've got my words, they're gonna cut
Sure took a while to say it's enough
I've got my heart, it's full of love
Sure took a while to learn it's enough

So let's go for blood, let's go for blood
Let's go for blood, let's go for blood, let's go for blood

Well, it sure took a while to turn it around
But I never gave up on me
Yeah, it sure took a while to turn it around
But I never gave up on me

Let's go for blood, let's go for blood, let's go for blood

How to say goodbye...

How are we at the end, am I ready
baby tell me why you run
Go ahead, once again that you're sorry
I know we're already done

This happens every time. You're already out of sight.
Where did we go wrong and how'd we end up
Take a breath, take it in, I am falling
You taught me how to fall in love

wasting all this time
if there's anything you learn from lies
it's how to say goodbye
when did you let go to keep me hanging
waiting for a sign

if there's something I saw in your eyes
it's how to say goodbye

the blade is touching on the bone
love is all that I have but it's sinking
crying out to be alone
this happens every time
you're already out of sight
and you taught me how to leave it behind

I Will~

If you forget the reason that you're singing
And it's hard to find the song of your soul
Just remember how you helped me start believing
Anytime you're feeling down, I hope you know

Who's gonna always have your back
Whose gonna be a friend like that
I will, I will
Who's gonna try to make you laugh
Remind you life ain't all that bad
I will, I will, yea yea

If you're feeling like the queen of nothing's working
And you question every choice you make
When you're sick and tired of being so uncertain
And everything you thought was right is lost along the way

Anytime, anyplace, I don't care
No questions, no judgements, I'll be there

When all your wells are running dry
And nothing's really going right
Who's gonna help you fight the fight
I will

...sad beautiful tragic...

Long handwritten note 

deep in your pocket
Words, 

how little they mean when you're a little too late
I stood right by the tracks,

 your face in a locket
Good girls, hopeful they'll be 

and long they will wait

We had a beautiful magic love there
What a sad beautiful tragic love affair

In dreams I meet you in warm conversation
We both wake in lonely beds different cities
And time is taking its sweet time erasing you
And you've got your demons, and darling, they all look like me

'Cause we had a beautiful magic love there
What a sad beautiful tragic love affair

Distance, timing, breakdown, fighting
Silence, this train runs off its tracks
Kiss me, try to fix it, could you just try to listen?
Hang up, give up, for the life of us we can't get back
What we had a beautiful magic love there
What a sad beautiful tragic love affair