Here I am...Wasted

I'll protect you, don't be scared
No matter what, I will be there
I'll be gentle, I'll be light
These are the words you whispered in the night

Now I'm standing in the cold

Everything is said and done

Atomic winter in my soul

From the absence of the sun

My loneliness was a rattle in the windows

You said you don't want me anymore

And you left me

Standing on a corner crying,

Feeling like a fool for trying

I wish I could erase our memory

'Cause you didn't give a damn about me

The only remedy I know

Is I gotta let you go

But where were you when I was scared

A broken promise left me here

you say : "I'm sorry"

but I know you're not

I'll do everything I gotta do to get you off my mind

What you did, boy, I'll never forget

There will come a day when all of this is in my past

And there will come a day when you're out of my head at last

I'm trying not to fall

Damn it's such a long way down

But here I am

Laying down on the bathroom floor

Finally I'm through

Wasting all these tears on you

Damaged

and when i thought that my heart was broken into pieces
and when i thought that i finally find a solid ground
and when i thought that i finally moved on
and when i thought that i finally found my feet to get back up again
and when i thought i will arise

thats when it all came falling apart again
thats when i lost everything again
thats when my heart finally had its final straw
thats when i feel like nothing matters anymore
thats when i know i'm still not over you
coz you're the first one i was thinking of running to

the only two people who really cares
who really loves me for who i am
who always been there for me since i was a child
who showered me with love and attention that i never get from others
who backed me up every single time
who understands me more than anyone else
the only two people that really matters
both are gone now
and i have no where else to turn
i have no one else to love me like they do
to shower me with love and affections

i was trying hard not to look for you
i was trying hard not to find you
i was trying hard not to be weak again
i was trying hard coz i was scared of your indifference
i was scared that your reaction would shattered me more
losing, hoping, expecting...

i think i am finally damaged...
and all i've become was a living and walking contradiction..

-naraj2014-

how can I?

tears stream, down your face,when you lost something you cannot replace-Coldplay 'Fix You'-

Cannot touch, cannot hold, cannot be together
Cannot love, cannot kiss, cannot have each other
Must be strong and must let go
Cannot say what our hearts must know

Cannot dream, cannot share, sweet and tender moments
Cannot feel, how we feel, must pretend it's over
Must be brave and must go on
Must not say what we've known all alone

How can I not love you
What do I tell my heart
When do I not want you
Here in my arms

How does one walks away
From all of the memories
How do I not miss you
When you are gone

How to say goodbye...

How are we at the end, am I ready
baby tell me why you run
Go ahead, once again that you're sorry
I know we're already done

This happens every time. You're already out of sight.
Where did we go wrong and how'd we end up
Take a breath, take it in, I am falling
You taught me how to fall in love

wasting all this time
if there's anything you learn from lies
it's how to say goodbye
when did you let go to keep me hanging
waiting for a sign

if there's something I saw in your eyes
it's how to say goodbye

the blade is touching on the bone
love is all that I have but it's sinking
crying out to be alone
this happens every time
you're already out of sight
and you taught me how to leave it behind

leave the pieces

You're not sure that you love me
But you're not sure enough to let me go
Baby it ain't fair you know
To just keep me hangin' 'round

You say you don't wanna hurt me
Don't want to see my tears
So why are you still standing here
Just watching me drown

You can drag out the heartache
Baby you can make it quick
Really get it over with
And just let me move on

Don't concern yourself
With this mess you've left for me
I can clean it up, you see
Just as long as you're gone

You not making up your mind
Is killing me and wasting time
I need so much more than that

Its alright, I'll be fine
Dont worry bout this heart of mine
Just take your love and hit the road

There's nothing you can do or say
You gonna break my heart anyway
So just leave the pieces when you're gone...