~~~The aunt-sink-crow-nice syncs ein~~~

Been playing with tweeters lately~~ kinda fun~~ plus, there's this band from San Diego called "We Shot The Moon" followed me on tweeter...so i've been looking up on their musics and it's really good!!! I like their song called "On Your Way"....

While on the way home today, in the car, suddenly something pops in my nonstop working brain...

I realized that i am very un-synchronize...or uncoordinated i guess..

• i always talk very fast when i'm nervous or meeting new people
• my brains think faster than me writing down the words and i end up editing the lost words that have pops in my head, which sounds really good than the edited one..LOL
• i stuttered when i talk bcoz, as the above, my head works faster than me speaking..*sigh*
• i still messed up my bowing because i'm too caught up in concentrating with my fingering..*cries*
• sometimes i trip on my feet without anything to make me trip/fall...*terrified*
• i always end up hitting something or someone when i went around...*petrified*...no wonder i have all the bruises that i didnt realize...LOL   -_-"""

 So to say...i'm a careless person...haizz~~~ *sigh*

Oh well~~

XOXO <3

~~~Brand New Eyes~~~

OMG!!!!! Paramore's new album just rocks!!!

Love the lyrics and the musics.... Just finish downloading the full album last night...

Paramore Brand New Eyes

My fav song so far is My only Exception..

The lyrics is so beautiful!!! Enjoy it!

When i was younger
I saw my daddy cry
And cursed at the wind
He broke his own heart
And i watched
As he tried to reassemble it

And my momma swore that
She would never let herself forget
And that was the day that i promised
I'd never sing of love
If it does not exist

But darlin,
You, are, the only exception
But, you, are, the only exception
But, you, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception

Maybe i know, somewhere
Deep in my soul
That love never lasts
And we've got to find other ways
To make it alone
Or keep a straight face

And i've always lived like this
Keeping it comfortable, distance
And up until now
I'd sworn to myself that I'm content
With loneliness

Because none of it was ever worth the risk, but

You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception

I've got a tight grip on reality
But I can't let go of what's in front of me here
I know your leaving in the morning, when you wake up
Leave me with some kind of proof it's not a dream

Oh

You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception

And I'm on my way to believing.
Oh, And I'm on my way to believing.

Isnt it sweet??~~~ (n_n)

XOXO <3

A clean break~~~

It's been a while after Aidilfitri~~~ But still in the month of Syawal~~ (n_n)

Last time my rambling did sound a bit pathetic...hahhaa..*knock the head*... oh well, my brain engine havent kick-up yet..after a long time trying to suppress the thinking inside when it's boiling to get outside..hahhaa.... Just finish watching Gossip Girl Season 3 Ep1....how i miss the drama~~~ *kyaaa~~*

Been a while since i listen to SS501 too~~~ really wonder, did they really come to Malaysia last August??? *sigh*

Can't get enough of Ashley Tisdale's Guilty Pleasure, Demi Lovato's Here We Go Again, Disney Channel, MTV channel, E! channel, AFC channel and books!!!!! I want more booksss~~~

Oh ya, just bought the dress that i really like while going out with my bestfriend, Xaiey...and i also get myself a new denim jacket!!! *yeay!*...but i still miss my old black jacket... a gift from my daddy~~~ *tsk tsk tsk*

Oh well...enough for tonight~~ wanna get some beauty schleeepppp~~~~

XOXO  you noe you love me <3

WhaT iF???

Blue monday~~~ as usual....-___-............

In my hour of weakness, where i would fall for someone...i beginning to lost my logical thinking...all that fills my head is sparks of hope..that could come from just a single gesture that could mean nothing to me if i'm not infatuated with that particular person...^.^"""

I hate feeling that way eventhough sometimes it feels sublime...*sigh*

It's not that i don't want to feel it, but i feel helpless when i do...and reasons will be nothing and advice are meaningless to me...no matter what people say, i still hold on to my hopes... and i would like it if that person feels the same too...hahaha... oh well, past is past....

Thank God i have so many things around me that keep me busy and distracted...and i manage to delete you~~~ lol XP

I dont know when or who.....but no matter what people keep saying about what i believe...i'm still hoping to find my prince charming...and live happily ever after...LOL....keep dreaming on.... if i could find someone like Jacob Black, who always be there for me, keep making me laugh n smile, be my sunshine, mend my broken heart*juz a figure of speech*, fight for me, keeping me warm and safe, making me his top priority, like me the best eventhough i'm a mess, make me feel like i'm beautiful, make me feel like he couldn't live without me, understands what i'm feeling eventhough i didnt say a word, even when everything falls apart he still holding on to me.....*sigh again*

Guess it's too much to ask sometimes....hahhahaaa....

*knock head against the wall*....too absorb in Eclipse...^_^||||

I know it's inpossible to find love that didnt hurt or make u crawling in the dirt....no matter what, there will always be another element that will make it hard for u...

But still, i will keep wishing that there will be someone like Jake for me someday....hahaha..me and my silly head....just can't stop wishing....(n_n) *here we go again...roll eyes* @_@

XOXO <3

It's Alright, It's Okay~~~~

Listening to Ashley Tisdale's new album "Guilty Pleasure" while waiting for my cake to cook~~~

 

First round of listening to the album, i'm falling in love with the song called "How do you love someone"...beautiful lyrics and catchy musics...(n_n)

Overall, her album is quite nice...worth it for waiting almost 2 hours for downloading it..lol...;p

well, not much to say today...

yesterday's violin class is a bit ok than b4...coz the admin told him that i want to learn from basic again n i told him that i may forget what he had taught me before coz i didnt touch my violin for quite sometimes before starting learning again~~~ :,(

and thankfully, he didnt rush me like before...i guess i can cope up with that much...(n_n)

Will be missing teacher kiong though :(

Oh well.....that's that...

My head is so full of twilight saga coz i'm reading the whole series again...*i cant recall for how many times already*....it took 5 days for me to finish 3 books and now i'm reading the last book.."Breaking Dawn"....cant wait to see Eclipse n Breaking Dawn turn into movie..especially Breaking Dawn...where the wedding and bella turns into vampire..finally~~~ Kyaaaa~~~ *hyper-ventilating* XP

that's all for now...(n_n)

XOXO <3

.....CuPiD's FlYinG aRoUnD....

 I just love Yuna Ito's songs....especially the songs that she sings for NANA the movie..where she act as Reira from Trapnest...

It's been a while i didnt listen to her songs..the one from her album...this one is the one that i particularly like most...suitable for wedding song~~~(n_n)

 Hope u guys enjoy it too...

Yuna Ito - Precious

The lyrics translation:

On the day I couldn’t see
my heart I felt insecure
The meaning of loving somebody
it’s something I decide myself
truth can be found in everything
I promise you, I won’t wander off anymore
I’ll be strong...and prove myself to you
I won’t run away, I’ll turn around to face you
so I can see how you feel, to heart
*I will believe
so the two of us can be together in love
In order for my wish to reach the sky
I will look for you, and pray for the two of us
A pair of thoughts, now they can come
together and from a whole
Your precious love
When pain or bitterness pulls us
apart, we can hold each other
We’re no longer alone,
because everything is answered by true love
I will believe
so the two of us can be together in love
I’ll hold your hand forever, don’t let
go, let’s make a promise, the two of us
A pair of thoughts, now they can come
together and from a whole
Just the two of us
I believe that right now we can
strengthen this young and complacent love
There can be truth
A new beginning
I want to be one with you
I will believe
that we can come together
right now, right here, and love each other
So in order to light your light fill me
I hug you tightly

XOXO <3

......It's F-DaY......

Looks like friday is finally here....and i'm having a holiday...my stomach still upset :(...*damn PMS*....

Home alone today...so i end up doing some house chores to get my blood flowing..keeps jumping up & down..lol XD...*silly me*

Since today start with the "F" for Friday.... I feel like sharing about the "F" that i love...

Flowers~~~ (n_n)

lets start with roses...many people associates love with roses...*i still prefer lilacs*....
So, i found this website that explains the meaning of roses...

Meaning of Rose Colours:
Red Rose             : I Love You Or Encouragement
White Rose         : You are Heavenly, Reverence of Innocence & Purity
Pink Rose            : You are Gentle & Graceful
Light Pink Rose  : Gratitude & Appreciation
Dark Pink Rose   : Admiration & Sympathy Joy & Gladness
Orange Rose        : Enthusiasm
Blue Rose            : You Are Special
Purple Rose         : You are My Romance
Yellow Rose        : Joy, Gladness, Freedom
Two Roses           : Joined Together, Engagement
Red & White Rose : Together Unity

No Of Roses
Single bloom Red Rose : Love at first sight or I still love you
2 Roses                            : Mutual feelings
3 Roses                            : I love you
7 Roses                            : I'm infatuated with you
9 Roses                            : We'll be together forever
10 Roses                          : You are perfect
11 Roses                          : You are my treasured one
12 Roses                          : Be mine
13 Roses                          : Friends forever
15 Roses                          : I'm truly sorry
20 Roses                          : I'm truly sincere towards you
21 Roses                          : I'm dedicated to you
24 Roses                          : Forever yours
25 Roses                          : Congratulations
36 Roses                          : My heart will always be with you
40 Roses                          : My Love is Genuine
50 Roses                          : Unconditional love
99 Roses                        : I will love you all the days of my life
100 Roses                      : I am Totally Devoted to You
101 Roses                      :You are My One and Only
108 Roses                      : Will you marry me?
999 Roses                      :I love you till the end of time

oohhhh...how i wish i would get 101 red roses someday~~~ (^^,) and maybe along with 108 red roses....*melts*....lol....
Well, to the guys, make sure u remember this no of roses to give to ur loved one...(n_n)
It will surely melts her heart, no matter how angry she is with you...

XOXO <3

.....TwiSting twiStInG iN mY hEaD.....;p

i was leafing thru some of my notebooks that i used to write down some of my thoughts...then i stumble upon one page that i particularly like....*dont mean to brag*......well, some of it may sound silly coz i wrote it since about 6 years ago??...so long already ehh~~~ (n_n)

Oh well, it goes like this.....

looking around in our everyday lives, there's so much to see, so much to learn..yet still we being so ignorant...
When wwe are still little kids, we usually think of one thing : want to grow up fast! (dont tell me u never did..)..But as we grow old, all that we ever think of is : what if we can turn back time? feel the innocence again..
Living in the adults world sometimes can be very tiring..Do u ever wonder why kids are always so active and joyfully happy all the time?
From my point of view, i think that they can be so active because of their innocence. They doesnt have much to think about and all they know is, their world, their families, their friends, and their favourite heroes...
Look at us, we are grown ups who always feels tired of our life, tired of our hectic schedules, tired of people around us, tired of ourselves and u can say tired of everything! Keep whining all the time...
We started to feel tired of ourselves when we try to judge and compare ourselves to others whom we thought are better than us..we feels tired of our life when what we've planned didnt go the way we want it..we feel tired of our schedules because we cannot do what we want to do freely and enjoy ourselves..we get tired of the people around us when they became strangers behind us....Life is full of dissappointment for us..
But by hook or by crook, we still need to carry on and lives our life, whether we like it or not..Some blame it on fate..some blame it on situations n chances...But the only one that need to be blamed is us..it all comes from our mind..
When we grew up, our mind started to mature and think about responsibility, of caring, of love, of hopes, of commitment, and many other things that our little-selves have never thought of...We started to worry, started to try and pleased other people, started to try to be up to people's expectations, started to become more secluded in our own life...We becoming who we are today because of trying so hard to pleased others...If u realize it,that's the truth in our lives...day by day we start to lose our innocence..our life began to fill with cons, lie, threat, dissappointment, self-hatred, and lots of other negative feelings that could took away the rainbows in our life..Our minds are polluted and became twisted in every way..Each of us have a twisted mind of our own...Only hypocrites doesnt agree with that i guess...But then, we all are hypocrites, one way or another...

some of it, i still agree..some maybe i should think again...lol XD...how weird are my mind thinking back then....reading back at what i wrote before, i was like, why do i sound so matured back then???  i wish i'm still mature now..hahhaa.... Makes me realize that, we do change..maybe not the appearance, but inside...the way our minds works and think....and hopefully my innocence is still with me~~~ (n_n)

XOXO <3

.............Mountains will never moves away, so why bother chasing after it???....

A straight translation for....takkan lari gunung dikejar...hahahhahaa...

Not feeling well today~~~ *upset stomach*
-_-|||

But i was so excited after reading the new blog that my friend introduced to me....a blog about books and authors of fantasy and vampire story....
The blogger got all my favourite author in there!!! Sugoiee!!!
Her newest post was about the soundtrack for new moon movie sing by Death Cab for Cutie...i love their songs...and they use it in New Moon...one of my favourite book!!! *cool!!!!*
Watching some of the scene in that video makes me feels like i want to watch New Moon right away! *how i wish*

But, since the movie is not yet to come out...i guess i'll just settle with reading another *more* round of the novels...It's just keeps getting better.....eventhough i wish i have new books to explore...
Especially Alex Duval "Vampire Beach" Omnibus...i saw it in the bookstore and planning on buying it...i havent read the whole series, coz i borrowed the 1st series of the Vampire Beach book from my university's library...which is the one n only book from that series that they have....*sigh*

And i'm looking forward to get my hands on the last omnibus of "The Night World" Series....can't wait to have it here...(n_n)

haahhh~~~~*sigh again*
today is quite slow for me... Too quiet.........no wonder.. i forgot to play my media player...lol....
feels like listening to Demi's new album and some of Lenka's songs....mayb i queue in some of FIR songs, NewS ,SNSD, Yui and Jay Chou's tooo....(n_n)
Demi's song called "Solo" keeps ringing in my head since last night... i dont know why...it's a catchy song...and nice lyrics too... Just love her! <3

i want this!!!!

XOXO <3

....love is a strength.....

I've read this novel called "Ketika Cinta Bertasbih" by Habiburrahman El Shirazy....it was a series of books actually...very nice one... Giving the meaning of love in different point of view....a pure love...

Cant wait to watch the movie that they make based on the novels! (n_n)

Ketika Cinta Bertasbih Trailer 

XOXO <3

.....Half Full oF dAy iN tHe OffiCe....

hahahhahahaaaa.....

aahhhhhhh.....*sounds of satisfaction*

After a series of event that going to make me crazy in the office today...at 12.50pm, my mum called to pick me up...
*yeay*
we went to pick up my sister from her office,then i followed them to meet some lawyer...which i dont know what for...coz they both go in to meet the lawyer, while i wait at the waiting room alone...
haiiizzzz....so bored...
I dozed off for about 5min there..hahahhaa...so tired of waiting..almost 1 hour i wait ooo...geezzz..dont know wat r they doing in there....

Then, we go to the hair saloon in front of my mum n sis's office.....*finallly*
three of us got our hair wash n cut..hahhaa..so much fun..i like the vibe in that saloon too..so friendly!
I'm very much satisfied with my hair...but my mum said "why still so long???"....i said ,"of course laa..kan i said i juz want some trim n layered.."

As usual when i went to cut my hair, common questions that they will ask me:
"why ur hair very tebal ah?"
"how did u take care of ur hair?"
"how many times u wash u hair?"
"want to do rebonding or not?"
"dont want to dye ur hair ka?"
etc
etc
etc...
hahahhahaa.....
usually, i just answer with a smile or a no...hehehe..;p
But then, the guy that cut my hair today, ask me a bonus question...it goes like this:

hair guy:So, r u still studying? *while cutting my hair*
me: yup~
hair guy: what form?
me: huh?
hair guy: form 3 ah?
me: no..
hair guy: form 5 ah?
me: nope...
hair guy: then ley?
me: college oredi maa...

oh, now i could pass for a high schooler eh? ha ha ha..^_^"""
i dont tink i look that young???? Do i??..........................*think*.....................................
Nahhhhh................................LOL XD

well atleast the three of us very satisfied with our hair...my sister still cut her hair short...
my mum, juz give her hair some layer..
n me, trim, layered n some bangs...hehehe...

now, i'm looking forward to get myself a new pair of contact lenses...
havent use any for a while already since the last one irritate my eyes...due to long term use....*i'm killing my eyes...XP*

anyway...i told my boss i was going for just a little while, but i end up spending the whole evening working hour at the lawyer's office n saloon..hahaha...
Thank god, no one's in the office by the time i get back.. LOL...
So when i get back to the office, cun2 finish my office hour lor...n i just grab my bag n laptop..n go home happily~~~
(n_n)

Syukur Alhamdulillah, today is quite blissful for me...and funny too...still cant get over the cat-gila-kuasa-fight...lol...totally hilarious~~

XOXO <3

....Fax machine going crazy~~~...+_________+

I received fax from the bank for my boss....and the fax is a several pages of statement..but eventually, only the 1st page of every fax are printed out...the rest, just failed...

Then, another trouble arouse...the fax machine keeps beeping n display "paper jam! clear jam, then press ok"

kiraiinee~~~

nothing stuck or jammed anywhere..the paper dont even move lor~~ haizz~~~ Gila oredi this machine....

later i oso wen gila...lol ^_^||||

Then i saw some funny movement by the edge of my sight area...

This cat called Scarlet, she was moving ever so slowly as if she was afraid to make any sound or like she was a spy... So out of curiousity, i just watch her walk away slowly from the room that i'm working, coz she's playing with me this morning...then i caught her eyes keeps looking over to her right side, and then i saw another cat called Coco wacthing her too...

FYI, Coco is also a female cat, that have been a pet here for quite a long time, while Scarlet just being sent here two weeks ago...

Back to the walk... Scarlet keep moving that way *slowly creeping style*, but she held her body very high like she's some kind of feline queen..lol...and Coco eyes keeps staring at her...neither realize i was watching...;p

Scarlet walks her 'cat walk' and finally she get on a cushion and sit there like a queen should be..*funny*

And Coco saw Scarlet sitting down, and she rise up and walk slowly *just a normal slow* towards where Scarlet is...then Coco sits just opposite Scarlet cushion *Coco's on the floor* and keep staring at Scarlet...n Scarlet also look down n stare at Coco... i feel some vibes of fighting over who's territory it is...lol..even cats also knows  how to gila kuasa eh! 

I was like...Get Real!!! LOL...this is crazy... i wish  i had a camera with me so i can take the pics...but sadly, my hp is still in ER *isk isk isk* :,(

Anyway, i predict that they would  start the cat fight anytime now..but then, the fax machine keeps beeping n shouting about jammed paper!! S***...nothing jammmed inside baaa~~~

*bang head to the wall*

then the phone rings and the bank lady asking why can't fax, she waste a lot of time oredi, turn on the fax,blablabla...i said oredi turn on..only receive about 3 pages only..and she said "i'm faxing two more pages"....Duh! i know..the machine never stop whining n beeping oredi wat!

kiraaiiiiieeee!!!!!

Then i heard the cat fight~~~ so i rush out of the room and saw the two of them having  their fur standing like they r using some 'still standing' hair gel....LOL XD

so i shooed Scarlet out of the area...hahahaa...

Finally i can rest....

NOT!!!!!

There goes the fax machine again~~~

Grrrr.....feels like wanna throw the thing away owh~~*dush dush dush*

Oh hell, i guess i'll just do the new design for the drinks menu...b4 i went cuckoo..

*stress stress stress*

XOXO <3

........SeNsEs wOrKinG oVeRtiMe.......

"Love, is like the wind...u can't see it, but u can feel it"
-Landon Carter-(Nicholas Sparks)

Sometimes, most of the times actually, when i meet new people, i can feel some kind of aura or vibes from them...it's either good or bad...

But sometimes, i dont feel anything at all....

Like my 1st ever violin teacher, when i first met him, i kind of feel ill at ease...smthg's telling me that i'm not going to enjoy or ever being comfortable around him...which turns out true...:p

My friends, some of them that i'm really attached to, definitely have  a good vibes in them when i first know them...

but some of them doesnt gives any vibes at all...which sometimes turns out to be a good friend, sometimes not...

Everytime i step into a new environment or places, if i feel comfortable and can act the usual me...lots of questions and curiousity that comes from me, thats mean i feel a positive vibes from the people around...

But if i just kept to myself all the time, and doesnt really mix around...thats mean i either get a negative vibes or just plain nothing...

I really dont know how it works, sometimes i wonder it myself...am i going insane? or am i too sensitive?

I'm not the kind of person who judge people by the way they look...i prefer looking at their attitude n the vibes that they gave me... If it's not a good vibe, i prefer to stay away...if it's a good vibe, i'll try to be close...coz i love being around the positive energy (n_n)

Esp from one of my friend, Dee...(^^,)
*yes dee, it's you*
she gave me a very strong positive vibes..feels like a bright sunshine when she's around..i enjoy being around her...(n_n)

Most positive vibes i felt is quite dim and sometimes, it can change with the persons' mood at that time too...
I guess, i am being too sensitive...lol +___+

I wish how my over sensitive sense would work in the love department...so i can save myself from heartbreak...LOL XD

XOXO <3

........Threw Away & Run!!!!

Bugger...i dont even know why i wrote that title..hahaha...

i seriously need more sleep nowadays...but sadly, i'm having restless night 2 days in a row..which really suck! *nasib dh mlm, lom posa gik* :D

Pimples are building their kingdom on my face already~~~ S**T

I need facial treatment~~~ bring me to one~~~~ TTwTT......

Oh well, decided to trim my hair tomorrow..been a while i didnt trim it...split ends are getting worse and my hair feels dead to me!!hahaha....

I'm thinking of cutting it a little then ask the hairdresser to make my hair thinner n maybe curl just the end?
But then, my grandma keep saying..."dont cut ur hair,so long already, dont cut it, sayang lor"
my aunt also..."dont cut ur hair n dont tie it..let it down..it's beautiful,like Catherine Zeta-jones's hair"..<---- errr...so not!hahaha..makes me keeps tying up my hair nowadays...

my sister..."dont cut ur hair la...just straighten it..."...<---i hate straight hair that looks fake,thats why i never did it....prefer curly~~(n_n)
my mum..."dont cut ur hair, later b4 raya, u can curl it...urself"...<---mum, i would love if others do it for me, coz i cant see my hair from the back~~ @_@

So, mostly people told me not to cut my hair~~~hahaha...somehow...i dont know why, it's just how my mind works i guess...the more people me not to, the more i want to do it~~~ i even thought of cutting it very short n layered,then gave it a soft curl...hahahhaaa....

But then, i dont think i have time to do that..so i guess, tomorrow i'll just end up trimming just a lil bit of my hair..n mayb give a lil fringe...usually i do it myself...just once, i want to see how will it looks like when a hairdresser do it properly...hehhee...

geezz....seriously, i needd to sleeppp..tomorrow going to wake up at 4am, then never get a chance to sleep again...need to go buy the ingredients for my cake b4 going to work...mum is taking holiday to bring me to buy those stuff, coz it's her friends who ordered those cake, n the lest she can do is help me to drive me to buy things i need...hehehe...btw..thanks mum!

I'm trying to figure out why i cant sleep...

.....................................*a moment of silence*.............................
Oh heck, no use liaw~~~ i think i'll get some books to read, maybe i'll get sleepy by then....
*but usually, i would keep reading until finish*
+_+|||||||....haish! *sigh*

dont know what else to do....i'm turning back into a vampire i guess....LOL XD
but why now???????
Oooooo..there goes my beauty schleepppp~~~*fly out the window*

maybe i need lullaby!!!! *ding*
or maybe not....^_^"""

guess, i'll just go get my book then....*finally*
Oyasuminasai Minnasan~~~(n_n)

XOXO <3

.....Gimme more more more and more....

today is 8 sept....counting days to 16 oct...finish my practical!!!!!!

Yeayyyyyyyy!!!!!

but then.....................................-__________-...............................need to finish my system~~~

waaaarrrgggggghhhhhhh~~~~

help!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *crash the wall* dush!!!!

oh well..
i cant wait to finish my diploma, but then again seems like i'm running out of time to do my system...alone baaa~~~ other people suma ada partner~~~TT__TT

sometimes i feel like going crazy..hahaha...

My time is running out...wat with raya holiday and stuff...

*yessss!!!! Raya!!!! xlamak gik Raya!!!! yea! Yea!!!!*

this raya seems like i got plenty of order for my cake...yippie..Alhamdulillah~~~

*struggle hard not to sleep diz weekend to finish all of the order*

(n_n)

Seee...system not yet finish, there come new distractions..haiyaaa~~~

 

oh well...

as my quote goes

sometimes i forget, that i should be learning about this life not hating it....sometimes it takes times for me to realize that i should be grateful not keep whining about it.... ♥

-naraj 09-

XOXO ♥

~~~ Lurking Behind The ShaDowS~~~

Another post for today~~~ Fuh! ehehee~~ ^_^||||

*sorry guys, just can't help it*

Suddenly it comes back to me...about what i've been thinking last nite~~~

trying to see the me in others' shoe...

To All My Friends, I'm Sorry if i've been a burden to you guys all these while and not realizing if i'm being a sarcastic bitch to you guys~~~ Gomene!!!! 

I realize that, i tend to get away from those who loves to complicate their own life... It's not like i dont want to help them, I did and will help if they come to me for help~~~ I'm just the kind of person, who never had the heart to say No to those who needs help... The thing is, I've made my life much more complicated for me and myself, so i think i don't need others complicated life to bother in my head...*sorry if it sound harsh*

And i know that i'm the kind of girl, who tends to get clingy to those that i like and adore... those who i look up too..esp when i'm in trouble and got no one to turn to... I'm sorry for burdening ur life with my pathetic wail...hahahaaa...*not that i'm wailing at them,mind you ;p*

and thank you so much for always being there for me, being patients with me, eventhough i did stupid things that u guys already told me again and again it's not good for me...Sometimes, my head just love to do the other way round than what u guys advice me too...

To my bestfriend since matrix (u noe who u r), to my oniisamas (who always give me brilliant advice on life...u guys r the best when it comes to life and how to deal with it! Plus, both of u r taurus...i guess, taurus loves to think bout life huh?!), to my ex-roommate for 3 years ( i miss u dear, n u r the best dongsaeng n friend anyone could ever had...eventhough u r younger than me, sometimes ur thoughts are more matured than mine..hehehe..*hugs*), to my other friends that surrounds me (if u r reading this that is, who knows who i am, coz i give u the link..;p)....u guys have help me grow and blossoms in a great environment..*eventhough i was surrounded by some leech that keeps giving me negative attitudes and advice*,  u guys are the light in that darkness...

Thank you and sorry is not enough to describe my appreciations to you guys...

I'm sorry if i'm not being a good friend for sometime... I'm the kind of girl who sometimes, get tired of the hectic world..and when i get the chance to be by myself, i'll absorb myself in that world and ignore the rest...

It's not that i dont like being with you guys, you know how i enjoy hanging out with you all...eventhough i noe i'm not such a great companion coz i dont really socialize that well...hehehe..;p

But i guess, u guys knows me well enough right?

Sorry if i always ask for your guys advice but never listen to it...*i noe u guys will totally agree with this one*...esp advice in that love department..hahahaa..sorry again...but dont worry, i'm ok with everything now...trying to embrace everything that life has for me...and no thinking for 'love' anymore...hahahaa.. tired oredi, just wanna wait for my prince to come and save me *lol (n_n)*

And Thank You for staying being my friends eventhough i dont think i'm that good to be around you guys... Coz i just keep messing my life and getting it complicated day by day..eventhough i try not to....heheheee (^^,)

That's all for my friends...

XOXO <3

~~~MOndAy, BlOoDy MoNdAy~~~

 

As usual...it's monday..didnt feel mush like doing any coding to my system~~~ *sigh*

Suddenly feels like writing down much of my thoughts that keep coming... I didnt get a good night sleep, thanks to my thoughts..feeling restless and my mind keeps working and thinking all sorts of things..some of it i wrote down in my notebook that i always kept with me..some i just wrote up in here...to share what my silly head been up to~~ hahahaaa...*sigh again*

 

A picture of silhouette taken by me...still need improvement though... just love taking others pics..but not my own pic..hahahaaa~~ coz i know i'm ugly n getting uglier...well, hoepfully my innerself is beautiful..hahahhaa..silly me!( ^^,)

Always dream to get one of those gadgets...A DSLR of my own!!!! *kiiyyyyaaaaaa*

hayaku hayaku!!! come to me!!!

Well, i dont know what exactly that kept me awake all night last night...didnt sleep a wink..and didnt feel tired or sleepy at all this morning..which is weird...but i guess, mayb it got to do with me sleeping for almost 12hours the other day!!!!*such heaven* hahahahhahahaaa~~~ 

I was shocked to find that it's almost 2pm when i woke up...dont know what got into me..thankfully i've done all my chores already..so i woke up n took my bath n practice my violin...then when i get tired, i watch some japanese drama that i've kept in my laptop, which i never watch..hahaha...funny me~~

Last Sunday is such heaven for me! Wonder wen will i ever got the chance like that...but then, it's bad for my health..coz i cant sleep last nite!!!!!...I didnt even get my 8 hours sleep!! *as if i ever get one on weekdays..hah!*....OMG! sounds like i'm bragging alot bout my sleep~~~ well, heck! it's bcoz i dont get my beauty sleep at all!!! and i can't even remember what i've been thinking last night~~~*ssiiiigggghhhhhhhhhhhhhh* -.-||||

Oh well,

*thinking..................................................*

I dont know what i want to think anymore...

sorry that this post is full of crap which came from my crappy mind that wont let me get my sleep at nite! What a crap! lol XD

*guess i'm losing my mind for not sleeping well...^_^|||||*

XOXO <3

LoVe::愛::사랑 ::爱::Aimer:: Amor::Любовь::CiNtA

Love...

All over the world, in different language, yet it's still the same emotion for everyone...

But...*thinking*...what exactly is love? How do we know that it is love not lust? How did we manage to get involved in one? *dont mean to sound so pessimist..lol..juz a question that pops out of my silly little head*

There's a lot of definition to love from different anonymous and also knowned characters...

Love is any of a number of emotions and experiences related to a sense of strong affection and attachment - Wikipedia

love is to be delighted by the happiness of another - Gottfried Leibniz

Have a great affection or liking for something or someone - Anonymous

A strong positive emotion of regard and affection - Anonymous

still, u can search and found alot of definitions for love...

The thing is, how does real love really feels?

For a girl, who've been cheated by her boyfriend, i was wondering, how in the world should i know how the real love looks like and how to know if it's real or fake? 

How should i know that i am indeed in love, not just some crush or lust over someone?

The word love are easily used nowadays...seems like it's  lost the magic in it...

Before I involved in relationship (which is only once -_-|||), i used to imagine that when being in love or a relationship, you would always feel happy and being loved and also secured for having someone that always be there for you... I always think that it would feels like a happily ever after kind of thing, like the one i used to watch as a kid in movies...

But sadly, when i get into one, all i feel is , a feeling of mistrust(coz, he keeps lying n i dont know why..hate LIARS!!), keeps feeling like something is slithering my heart inside ( a painful,yet still bearable feelings), feels like i'm being mistreated and unappreciated (he always chose his friends over me! Damn!)...plus, he makes me feels guilty to talk with my bestfriend (whom is a guy..but, Duh! we've been bestfriend since like 4years oredi..platonic feelings k!), but it's ok for him to sit, laugh away n whispering with his friend (whom is a girl, n he just known her for like 2 months??)...

My sister n my friends keep telling me that he's no good for me..but i dont know why i still bcak him up at that time eventhough he hurt me a-Hell-lot!!!...He cheated on my once, with his ex-girl...i forgive him *but i dont forget! never!!*, i take him back, then he cheated me again with this girl that we both known,*which he used to called her ugly n a bitch!*...and that's the last straw for me! hahahaa...Finally, i guess i've reached my limit for patience... we broke up...without nothing to say...I stop calling him or msgg him for about 2 months..and all he give me is a miss called...Duh!!! I assume that we have broken up by then..n we didnt talk almost like a year or so... I dont mind at all, but seems like he's the one who's scared to approach me... Dare to mess with me again????!!! muahahahaha *evil laugh*

Well, now that he have a new gf, i'm feeling quite sorry for that girl..because he didnt admit that she's his gf to anyone...if he's walking with that girl, then he saw me, he would walk faster n left the girl behind..what kind of boyfriend is that????

Ah, well...as long as the girl can keep up with his player attitude, i guess she'll be ok..wish them the best! hahahahaaaaaa~~~

As for me, still waiting for a charming prince or a gentleman that will love me for who i am, not because how i look, respect me, and always be there for me...no matter what...*sigh*

Oh god, give him to me already~~hahahahhaa....

Well,that's all for love~~~

Soeulmate with my dream hp~~~(n_n)

XOXO <3

NOthinG in PaRt-TeA-CooLer <3

Just not in the mood to do some coding work right now... I've been wondering where did my passion gone lately?? Sometimes i just can't find it anywhere... I guess it's the results of often being left alone i guess... 

Just finish my reading on Haruki Murakami's novel - Sputnik Sweetheart... I very good book..the way the author explains the storyline and the words that are used to explain the very details of every little event are very metaphoric... It's just, i' still having problem with the ending, still can't find any conclusions to it... I guess, i just dont feel like thinking much right now...

Thinking or not thinking, it's the same thing
-Haruki Murakami

My mind just stop working right by this moment as i write down this statement..there's nothing i can find to share more... Suddenly i feel empty...~_~|||

Have a lot of things to worry about these few day and another couple of months.. but i guess, my mind just doesnt want to take the pressure by thinking over and over about it... So the best is for it(my mind) to keep quiet and stop thinking for a little time while there's no one around.. XD

Jaded

The right word to describe my feelings right now...

A touch of Springs in June! <3

Eventhough June has past way far by now, but i just wanna share my favourite scent of all time!

Which, is very difficult to find...because it's very rare that this flower is made into a perfume.

Some people doesnt even know it exist! kiyyaaaa!!! *petrified face*

and by coincidence, this flower only blooms in Early June, which also the date of my birthday is..

This perfume and the complete set of the shower gel and lotion can only be found from Yves Rocher shop...which, i only encountered one in KL, to be exact at Berjaya Times Square...*sigh*

 I wish i could buy it right now...my perfume is getting low already, so is my lotion n shower gel..

I love this scent very much!!! <3 <3 <3

XOXO <3

Erida is hanging in the air~~~ I could almost taste it~~

When it comes to money and work, i'm sure everyone would get tense right? Well, so do i..esp today! 

It's full of s**t!!!

I've been doing all the works that i'm not suppose to do..that are not what i came here for...atleast show some appreciations to what i did... I've told clearly of what i'm supposed to do when i came here, but still, you give my suppose project to others without consulting me! 

heck! I feel like being used!

Last week, u told me that the arrangement is ok, n you wouldnt mind, yet today, u said the other way round...keep twisting and turning... 

So sick n tired of it already...

Always keep doing what you want and making me feel guilty...

Bugger!!!

Since i've had a cracking headache since this morning, my temper are not in a good place right now... 

Sometimes i wish i could stop and run away...

Coz all that i do is nothing to do with what i'm supposed to do and it's very frustrating....

Kiraaiiiiiiii!!!! >.<

I feel like bleeding myself out....hahaha..wonder how that feels...geezz..

now i'm being morbid...

Wish i could just set off to another new and more comfortable workplace... :(

XOXO <3