Have you?

Have you ever fallen for someone

So bad, even when you are not in a compatible age?

Fallen for someone who finally

Making your soul feels alive

And your innerchild screaming of joy?

Someone who would understand that childish part of yours

Coz he was into those things that others think as wasting time?

Have you ever got rejected by someone

Who you finally think would be your match

And you end up losing sleep trying to get over it

But instead keep on getting nightmares on how good it would be between both of you

And end up waking with more broken heart

So you prefer staying awake as late as you can, so you wont get any dreams at all?

Have you ever fall and gets rejected

And you feel how that person try to distance themselves from you

But you didnt feel angry at all only sad?

Coz you understand how it may look from his point of view

And you can't blame him for it?

And you still wish the best for him because you see his potential

And you got jealous for a nonexisting future girl of his for having him in her life?

Because you know how good he will be, how loyal he will be and care for her with all his heart?

Have you ever wish that, 

a 10 years younger man to really want to be with you

Despite your age gap

And save you for all the heartache

Coz he is finally the one who clicks to your soul

And checked all the high standard boxes that you created after the last one destroyed you?

Thinking that no real human would be able to really checked those boxes but he did?

I have... 

And it hurts... 

So bad... 

-naraj2020-