Keeping Cool

I'm good.

Thats what i keep telling myself

I'm cool.

Thats what i keep telling people around me

I'm okay.

Thats what i keep saying to him

It was expected. 

I keep trying to make myself believe

It wasnt that deep

To keep me stuck in the labyrinth

Its a good ending

Of an almost beginning

I try to keep it cool

Smilling and joking

Trying to make you feel at ease

Trying to make it less burden to you

Trying to make it seem like 

i'm a better and wise person

Like someone who is more mature than you

Trying to show that it doesnt affect me much

Trying to show you my cool side

Trying to remember the good feeling

Trying to memorized the beautiful day

Where you make me feel the giddiness of a young girl in love

That innocent feeling that i always wished for

Of not trying to be anything but my weird self

Enjoying the childish things that we both love

Without any judgement

I'm trying to ignore

That it was the ending

Trying to ignore that nothing is going to be

And just keep enjoying your presence next to me

Not knowing if i'm able to move on

Not knowing if i'm able to find another like you

A beautiful mind with a beautiful heart

Not realizing how precious you are

For someone with a hopeless romantic heart like me

But you are what I ever wanted if i had a choice before

You are that almost perfect someone

Someone who screams true love in everything you do

Before my view of love was distorted

But it was too late

When we cant even begin

-naraj2020-