Talk

I reached for you,
But you were gone
Life's never been worse but never been better

I've been picking up the pieces that you left behind
Let me remind you that this is what you wanted
You ended it
You were all I wanted
But not like this

This love left a permanent mark
I fell to my knees
But it meant nothing to you
You never turn back as you leave
What kind of heart that never look back?

You filled up my glass,
with promises that can never last
And all the things that we once said
are not in my heart, they're in my head

You were a moment in my life that comes and goes
A riddle a rhyme that no one knows
A change in the heart, a twist of fate

So I learned to be okay with just me
and I'll be fine on the outside
and I'm doing fine on the inside so far
But life was never as it seems
Just like a faded memory
I'll remember I am not alone

how does it feels?

For once, i thought that this is it
For once, I thought I've found someone who can't bear to lose me
For once, I thought I've found someone who loves me as much as I do

But I was wrong again...

how does it feels?
to be on the other side?
to be the one that gets all the begging?
to be the one ignoring all the begging?
to be the one holding the trigger that could kill a heart
to be the one that pulled the trigger no matter how much that other person loves you
to be the one that doesn't feel the need to have the loved ones by their side
to be the one that walks away

how does that feels to you?
to received all the love that I can give
to received all the attention that I always give
to still hate every little things that annoy you
to hate the little part of me that makes me who I am
to disrespect me in front of strangers about how annoyed you are with me
how suffocating I am to you
how does that feels?

is it empowering?
is it good?
does it makes you feel better?

i wonder...i only can wonder..
coz my heart was made to love truly and deeply
and doing everything i could before anything took you away
to fight to protect the relationship
but I guess, its another waste of time
another pieces to be broken


xoxo
-naraj2014-

...silence...

its funny
looking back at the past
how after all those years without anyone
residing in that corner of my heart
i felt as if i've grown and know better
of what a fool that i've been
and i'm feeling invisible by thinking i am strong enough
to be indipendent
to be my own self
to be alone
and how silly it is
in just a day
all those lessons that i've learnt
are of no use to me the moment you hold ny hands
i told myself over and over again
i dont wanna be where we were before
and yet here we are again
and this time its hard for me to walk away

these hope is treacherous
these daydream is dangerous