~~ShaDowS QuoTe oF tHe DaY~~

LaW mAkeR sHoUlD nOt bE lAw BrEaKeR

Life fails to be perfect but never fails to be beautiful~
-anon-



...it's ok i guess...

Sunday, January 17, 2010

being in a new environment...
trying to adapt little by little..
even though there's a lot of stuff that are really getting on my nerves
(eg: attitude n perspective)
but being around people that we are comfortable with really help me through it...
plus, i might say, my group is really loud and always in a cheerful mode~ LOL

Love you guys~

though sometimes i feel like a very uncomfortable atmosphere surrounds me..
as i feel like I'm in between and there's nothing i could do to help~
*sigh*
Gomene Minna-san~

hopefully this sem will be an excellent one~

I might not be able to post any new post everyday...but I'll try to update more frequently~
coz, once i start, it's hard for me to stop~
hehehe XD

XOXO


...tormented....

Wednesday, January 13, 2010


damn!!!

he promised not to hurt her again...
he promised she's the one...
he promised in front of his mother...
he promised her all that he is...
he promised that he would never do it again...
he promised that he would never betray her trust again...
and he promised me that he would take care of her and never let her cry anymore...

He's an a******
He's a jerk!
He's son of a b****
I wish him the worst!
I wish i could go to where he is and slap him in his face and punch his face!
and I wish i could slap that B**** in her face in front of public, so they know the s*** she is that steal another woman's man...

I wish them both all the hell in the world!!!
If i ever see his fucking face or her fucking face again or anywhere, I would surely slap them!
But i guess they r meant to be together...
A son of a b***** and a total S***

sama gersang kali cdak duak ya!

To my dearest dongsaeng, Xai Ma...be strong babe...
wish I was there to be with you...
to hug you...
and babe, 'Revenge is sweeter than he ever was'...right?

XOXO ♥

...Wo ming bai wo yao te ai, hui ba wo chong huai...

what do you say of taking chances??
what do say of jumping off the edge?
Never knowing if there's solid ground below, or hands to hold, or hell to pay???
What do you say?
-Celine Dion Taking Chances-

I always love this song...
The lyrics just keep me sane for the past few days...
and holding on...
 I try to get past one day after another...
making the most of my days
never letting myself feeling down for too long...
finding reasons, small reasons to be happy and grateful..

Starting my class already this week...
well, quite for suddenly studying without any warming up...
LOL

my first class, mandarin..
having fun learning the right pronounciation, eventhough its very irritating having to repeat over n over..hahha
han yu pin yin is not so fun in pronouncing those four sound syllables...

second class, algebra
when i went, they started last week it seems..and the lecturer just continue where she left off..
and i was in  a big blur...Gaussian etc...bla bla bla...cant seem to make any sense why she keep repeating the equations when she can just solve it..
but i let it go for a while..and she went into the matrix gaussian..which makes much more sense..hahah
then in the end of the class, i went up to her and ask why does she have to keep repeating the equation again and again when the value of the variable can be obtained by doing the equation simultaneously...
and she told me why and explain the reason behind those systems...hahha..finally she said, its not really important as long as i get the matrix well...hahha

third class, presentation skills class..
which we r asked about public speaking and asked to present any topics that pops in our head...
i feel ridiculously terrified...i even had a hard time to breathe until the end of the class...
hahahha..silly me XD
finally getting my air back when Suzie n I went to get smthg to drinks on the way back to our college and we sat down at one of the bench to get fresh air...

the next day, we have multimedia computing class...
first impressions...he teach like the first time Sir R. taught us mutimedia..hahahha
Sorry Sir R... XP
its quite dry..he talks nonstop for the 2 hours class...my eyes gets dry and i feel a lil bit sleepy..
hahaha..i guess same goes with the others...no one make a sound until there's and interruption...lol

then, we have multimedia design & development class...
which we came in late almost 1hour out of the 2 hours class...hahaha
but didnt do it on purpose..we had a problem with our third lang. registration...so we had to got to the Lang. Academy building to try to settle it...which end up in disappointment...
oh, well..atleast we make it into the lecture...
quite ok..coz Dr M. is quite ok in explaining the notes...

the last class for today is comp graphic,visualization n animation..
which seems she had taught some of the students last week...
but she repeat the same thing again for us...
and all we do is being introduce into the Visual C++
which is a bit different from Borland C++ that we used to learnt..
but its pretty fun when we did the coding right...
I was excited doing the coding after a long time didnt make any coding on some animation or visualization...LOL
all we did coding last few sem is on system which is mostly for database... :(

oh well...i hope i did well this sem...aiming for the star...but if i end up at the moon, i'll be satisfied enough..
[coz the stars are much more farther than the moon..hehehe]
LOL XD

p/s: A-kun, thanks for making my days again~

XOXO

...in a new world with new stuff to be grateful for....

Friday, January 8, 2010


The series I've been looking for the past 4 years...finally it's available here!!!
The full series!!!
But I only manage to persuade my mum to buy me one~ coz it's so expensive eh~
Oh well, guess I have to buy one by one~ XD



Okasan have promised to buy the 500gb xternal harddisk for me..and finally I get it~~
Arigatou Okasan~~
(n_n)



Been thinking of exchanging my Love for a while...and I told Okasan that my Love is barely living..
and I really need to trade it before it goes dead on me.... :'(
and due to my situation which will be far from home, mum agree to pay it for me..as my salary is not in yet~
:))



Missed this fragrance!!!! Finally I'm able to get it anytime I want~ XD
Lilacs is sooo soothing~~ ♥♥♥



new pillow and small bolster and pillow case bought at Ikea...as mum dont want me to bring my old ones...
We went shopping till we both have cramps! LOL

Spending a lot of happy times together with mum lately...
barely had a chance like that at all
I feel happy, but at the same time i feel soo sad...
feels like it's the last time for me to be like that with her...
In my happiness, I feel scared..of something I didnt know...
and I dont understand why...

and the feeling got worse when mum went back to Kuching...and I'm all alone here...
eventhough Miss Amy is here with me...
feels like i'm soo far away from my family and i missed them much!
keep 3G-ing with them everyday...
I dont know why I feel this way...never felt like this eventhough I did went to Labuan last time...
I feel insecure and scared...
my exact feeling is I feel petrified when I thought about my family...
Just hope this feeling will dissolve once I get busy with my classes...
Amin...

XOXO ♥






trying to be a positive energy~

Wednesday, January 6, 2010

been a while...
feeling a little bit frustrated when i finally settled in here...
even in sarawak campus, we have wifi, but apparently not here... Duh!

Still trying to adapt myself in this new environment which are mostly downright frustrating
but keep telling myself to think in a new perspective..a diff view
A positive thinking to get me thru it all~~ LOL

Thankfully, I'm a sugar-rush kind of person, so i get happy easily~ hehehe
i manage to be positive and get my energy to go through it all...
but sadly, my appetite didnt feel the same way...
maybe i could manage to get slimmer huh?! hahahha
 Guess, it's just homesick~~

XOXO