new addiction...trying to runaway...

I need new addiction...which is easy during this holiday~hehheee...

found new drama and artist..

and I really want to watch this new taiwan drama~~~

Death Girl aka Gloomy Salad Days

been trying to find the download link with english subs..huhuhu..

and also, there is this new taiwan artist that is very handsome and his voice is very amazing~

introducing

Anthony Neely!!

isn't he's cute???

he's mix chinese and america i've heard...thus, the good looks...

the smile...ahhhh~*melts*

Try to search for his songs in youtube...

The one that I love is "Sorry that I loved you"

a very sad one...at first, i thought he was some new american artist..turns out he's a taiwanese.. ;p

well, thats all for now...

XOXO ♥

...I'll disperse as my gift to you...

Morning all~ 

phew...been a while...

well, it's holiday, and I'm too busy enjoying my vacation and feel so lazy to open this blog and update it..ngeee..bianne~

its 28/11

a day when 'someone' is born...

I've been dreaming of being with you

on the special day for you

but I guess, It'll only be a dream

for you shunned me from your life

You blocked me

it hurts

then I guess you deleted me

and I'm through

I never understand the choice that you made

and sorry was never enough

but I have to accept

coz I dont wanna hurt anymore

The only gift that I could give you

is me

and I promise you

today will be the last that you heard from me

maybe I don't understand

what benefit that you said for the choice you made

but stop saying sorry and said its for my own good

coz sorry is never enough after what you made me go through

I'm leaving you behind

I'll never come again

This is all that you want

So this is the last goodbye and the greatest gift for you

naraj10'

XOXO ♥

...sing me a song of the broken hearted...

there's something I want to pour out..but not just yet...
so, instead..I'm gonna dedicate some of my favourite songs now to the men thats been transitting in my heart port...hahhaaha...

These is for Mr Darcy

 

The Pretty Reckless-You

You don’t want me, no
You don’t need me
Like I want you, oh
Like I need you

And I want you in my life
And I need you in my life

You can’t see me, no
Like I see you
I can’t have you, no
Like you have me

And I want you in my life
And I need you in my life

You can’t feel me, no
Like I feel you
I can’t steal you, no
Like you stole me

And I want you in my life
And I need you in my life

 

xxxxxx

Diana Vicker-Notice

I'm still dancing
Now we're burning
The heat was rising
And now we're breathing more and more

Can you see me now?
Can you hear me shout?
When I'm dancing through the fear
Will you catch my fall?
Do you know me at all?
It's like you never notice me
It's like you never notice me

I'm still trying
I'm not tired just yet
My eyes are drying
I never dreamed that you'd forget

Can you see me now?
Can you hear me shout?
When I'm dancing through the fear
Will you catch my fall?
Do you know me at all?
It's like you never notice me
It's like you never notice me

In my room
There is doubt
The only words cant come out?
We were friends, we had hit
And I choke when you speak

because you never notice me
because you notice me

Can you see me now?
Can you hear me shout?
When I'm dancing through the fear
Will you catch my fall?
Do you know me at all?
It's like you never notice me
It's like you never notice me

Notice me

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These is for My Soul Bro

The Pretty Reckless-Since You're Gone

Since you hide, since you steal
Since you hate everything I feel
Since you cheat, since you lie
Since you don't wanna try things I wanna try

Since you been gone
My life has moved along quite nicely actually

Got a lot more friends and I don't have to pretend
Since you're gone, since you're gone

Since you're not what I want
You can take everything I've got
Take the seat, take the drive
If I say I love you, I am a liar

Since you been gone
My life has moved along quite nicely actually

Well, meet my lover Gin and I don't have to pretend
Since you're gone, since you're gone

I've been looking for a new direction, anyway
I've been thinkin' bout my own protection, instead

Now that you're gone my life has moved along
Now that you're gone my life has moved along
Now that you're gone my life has moved along
Now that you're gone

Since you hide, since you steal
Since you hate everything I feel
Since you cheat, since you lie
Since you don't wanna try things I wanna try

Since you been gone
My life has moved along quite nicely actually

Quite nicely actually, quite nicely actually
Quite nicely actually, quite nicely actually
Quite nicely actually, quite nicely, thanks for asking

xxxxxxx

Diana Vicker-Once

Here we are, a careful distance
Heres my heart, whats left of it
In this town, I used to listen
Once, Once, Yeah

I had hope, blind faith
Had as much as you can take

Im only gonna let you kill me once
Im only gonna let you kill me then some
Im only gonna let you kill me

Once, Once, Once, yeah

Once, Once, Once, yeah

Once, Once, Once, yeah

Once, Once

Ashes burn the morning after
Only know Im here to stay
I was so, I let you see me
That was dumb, but thats OK
Tripping down to your place
What is love anyway

Im only gonna let you kill me once

Im only gonna let you kill me then some

Im only gonna let you kill me
Once, Once, Once, yeah
Once, Once, Once, yeah
Once, Once, Once, yeah
Im only gonna let you kill me

Who or whatever you do
Dont let anyone love you
Touch them where it hurts
And then you'll leave

Im only gonna let you kill me once

Im only gonna let you kill me then some

Im only gonna let you kill me
Once, Once, Once, yeah
Once, Once, Once, yeah
Once, Once, Once, yeah

Im only gonna let you kill me
Once, Once, Once, yeah

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I know I'm stupid and pathetic...

but I guess, once I gave my heart to someone, trust them too much..

and hope too much from them...

I guess no one is brave enough to be with me and bear all of my silliness and clumsiness...

I don't need anyone to say I'm pretty

I don't need anyone to say I'm cute

I don't need anyone to say I'm hot or sexy

I just need someone that says I'm beautiful in every way possible not just in words but thru his actions...

and I don't need him to keep reminding me of my looks but instead of how he feels for me...

I just want someone who would respect me and take me as I am..

Someone who makes me smile...

Someone who can accept my family as it was his...

Someone who is willing to ride the bus with me...when we have no other transport...

Someone who makes me feel like I am loved...

Someone who makes me feel like he really cares for me...

Someone who can hangout with my friends and me with his friends...

Someone who is willing to listen to me rambling and ranting about everything without judging me...

Someone who can lead me to the right path and not pushing me to it...

Looks are not what's important...it's what on the inside...

But I guess, even that's is impossible for me...

So I'm gonna wait for my own Jeon Jin Ho...minus the looks...if he comes with the looks, it'll be a bonus~ LOL

XOXO ♥

....this is it...

I'm tired...

it feels like my heart is wearing a lot of clothes that are soaking wet...

and now it feels heavy and I can't take it anymore...

I'm a pushover...I know that...

and all I want is someone who can accept me for who I am and make me strong with his love...

I know it's impossible for me to find someone as perfect and handsome and tentative as Jeon Jin Ho (Personal Taste ;D)...but at least all I want is someone who really cared for me the way he cared for Kae-In...huhuhuuu..

The silence you gave...the action you did...i guess i am deleted in his life...

so I decided to move on!!! I'm saying goodbye to you..and hope you're happy with your decision!

and as for my soul brother, I'm thankful for you and glad that you're around..but I'm tired of being this way with you...being like a rebound every time you broke up with someone...I'm done...It's exhausting!

and I've had enough...maybe I couldn't be sarcastic to you guys and end it the way I should, but I guess I have to do it this time...coz my heart feel cold wearing this soaking wet clothes day by day...

From now on, I guess I'm going to wear some kind of armor and lock my heart to protect it...hahahhaa

gonna throw away the key...and if someone stumble upon it..be my guest...

I have a weak heart...and I really need to learn to protect it...I had to...

coz nothing else works...I keep giving a piece of me away, but in the end i lose it...

I'm not regretting any of it coz I learned...but I know how weak I am to let this stuff keep repeating in my life and hurt me over and over again...

I guess, its much more bearable just to admire from afar...

and I have tons of people around me that are admireable...hahahhaa

and once my very own version of Jeon Jin Ho found me..I'm gonna hug him like this! tehehehhee... ;p

but for now...i'm done with everything...

I deserved my own Sang-Go-Jae... ;D

XOXO ♥

...Talking To The Moon...

I believe that silence is the best weapon to torture others feelings...

and you've done that to me a million times..

your silence is excruciating and torturing my heart and soul..

but when you did what you've done today...

your actions kills every little pieces of the fireflies that's left...

I feel so melancholy tonight...so I just wanna listen to Bruno Mars "Talking To The Moon"

I know you're somewhere out there
Somewhere far away
I want you back
I want you back
My neighbors think
I'm crazy
But they don't understand
You're all I have
You're all I have

[Chorus]
At night when the stars
Light on my room
I sit by myself
Talking to the Moon
Try to get to You
In hopes your on
The other side
Talking to me too
Oh Am I a fool
Who sits alone
Talking to the moon

I'm feeling like
I'm famous
The talk of the town
They say
I've gone mad
Yeah
I've gone mad
But they don't know
What I know
Cause when the
Sund goes down
Someone's talking back
Yeah
They're talking back

[Chorus]
At night when the stars
Light on my room
I sit by myself
Talking to the Moon
Try to get to You
In hopes your on
The other side
Talking to me too
Oh Am I a fool
Who sits alone
Talking to the moon

Ahh...Ahh...Ahh..
Do you ever hear me calling
Ho Hou Ho ho Hou

'Cause every night
I'm Talking to the Moon

Still try to get to You
In hopes your on
The other side
Talking to me too
Oh Am I a fool
Who sits alone
Talking to the moon

Ohoooo...

I know you're somewhere out there
Somewhere far away

  

and i was left...life goes on...

and I prefer my friend to sing this song to me...coz his voice is awesome...

and this song reminds me of the crazy night we went out together... :D

XOXO ♥

...You're my new favourite thing....

You came out of nowhere

A welcome distraction

A sight for my sore eyes

A most special attraction

Oh you saved me

Oh don't you know

You're my new favorite thing

-Balingomingo 'New Favourite Thing'-

I guess I'm closer to closure now...hahaha...

Mr Chipsmore a.k.a A***d a.k.a MYH

I guess I wont feel much alone now..coz I've got my new favourite thing around..hahhaa

I'm gonna miss you but I guess, it's time for me to stop letting myself down and gloom...

Well,my sunshine is here now...

and I'm gonna make the most out of it...

It's time for me to be happy like I supposed to..

and I know, many people wonder who the heck is Mr Darcy or Mr Chipsmore...

hehehee...

not gonna reveal his identity...

but he is someone who brought fairytale in my life..even just for a day...

watching fireflies on that one night...

and he shows me his affection for the first time i guess...

but then he decide he's not good enough for me...

well, I can't really accept his reason for leaving me..

but I guess, everyone have their own reason..eventhough it's silly and stupid~ ;p

I think maybe he thinks too much on our future...while me, I'm just taking everything as they come..hehehe

Oh well, I'll let you go...coz you know where to find me...

To my soulmate...(well, I believe you are the brother of my soul..hehehe)

we always be the way we are...crazy bunch of kids with "bloodlust"...LOL

and I'm glad I found you though we are meant to be just us..like this..

but every single thing you do, it touched my heart...sincerely...

and I thank you for it...

you make my gloomy and depressed days became wonderful and moments full of happiness..

you always made my day...with that cute face of yours.. :D

I missed you a lot!

and the time we lost? Doesn't seem like we lost anything at all...hehehe..

and with you around, nothing else matter ☺

☼ you're my sunshine~

and that song above dedicated for you~hehehe..

XOXO ♥

♪♫♬...they sing out what my heart wants to say...♬♫♪

Listening these songs over and over again~~~The lyrics are so meaningful and beautiful..and the music is nice and soothing....hehehe

The Pretty Reckless - You

one of the ballad number in their album~

You don’t want me, no
You don’t need me
Like I want you, oh
Like I need you

And I want you in my life
And I need you in my life

You can’t see me, no
Like I see you
I can’t have you, no
Like you have me

And I want you in my life
And I need you in my life

You can’t feel me, no
Like I feel you
I can’t steal you, no
Like you stole me

And I want you in my life
And I need you in my life

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Katy Perry - Just like A Movie

one of my favorite song in her new album

He put it on me, I put it on,
Like there was nothing wrong.
It didn't fit,
It wasn't right.
Wasn't just the size.
They say you know,
When you know.
I don't know.

I didn't feel
The fairytale feeling, no.
Am I a stupid girl
For even dreaming that I could.

If it's not like the movies,
Thats how it should be, yeah.
When he's the one,
I'll come undone,
And my world will stop spinning
And that's just the beginning, yeah.

Snow white said when I was young,
"One day my prince will come."
So I wait for that date.
They say its hard to meet your match,
Find my better half.
So we make perfect shapes.
If stars don't align,
If it doesn't stop time,
If you can't see the sign,
Wait for it.
One hundred percent,
With every penny spent.
He'll be the one that,
Finishes your sentences.

If it's not like the movies,
Thats how it should be.
When he's the one,
He'll come undone,
And my world will stop spinning,
And thats just the beginning.

'Cause I know you're out there,
And your, your love came for me.
It's a crazy idea that you were made,
Perfectly for me you'll see.

Just like the movies.
That's how it will be.
Cinematic and dramatic with the perfect ending.
It's not like the movies,
But that's how it should be.
When he's the one,
You'll come undone,
And your world will stop spinning,
And it's just the beginning.


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Ashley Tisdale - What If

love her songs...eventhough it's an old album..but I love this song...

Don't speak, I can't believe this is here happening
Our situation isn't right
Get real, who you playing with? I never thought he'd be like this
You were supposed to be there by my side

When you say that you want me I just don't believe it
You're always ready to give up and never turn around

What if I need you baby? Would you even try to save me?
Or would you find some lame excuse to never be true?
What if I said I loved you? Would you be the one to run to?
Or would you watch me walk away without a fight?

I'm so sick of worrying that you're gonna quit over anything
I could trip and you'd let go like that
I'm everything that we ever were seems so fake but not the hurt
'Cause you don't know the good things from the bad

When I say that I want you, you know that I mean it
And in my hour of weakness there's still time to try

What if I need you baby? Would you even try to save me?
Or would you find some lame excuse to never be true?
What if I said I loved you? Would you be the one to run to?
Or would you watch me walk away without a fight?

Every time I speak you try and stop me
'Cause every little thing I say is wrong
You say you're noticing but you never see
This is who I really am that you can't believe

Makes me wanna know right now
If it's me you'll live without or would you change your mind?
What if I need you?

But what if I need you baby? Would you even try to save me?
Or would you find some lame excuse to never be true?
What if I said I loved you? Would you be the one to run to?
Or would you watch me walk away without a

Oh baby what if I need you?
What if I need you? What if I need you?
What if I need you? What if I need you?
What if I need you? What if I need you?
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Charice - All that I need To Survive
love all her songs and her voice...

I look out my window
And wonder where you are (where you are)
And if you are safe out there
Somewhere in the dark (in the dark)
Time has no meaning
To this broken heart that's mine

I see your face
Where ever I go
I hear your voice
I want you to know

Refrain:
I feel your arms when I'm lonely
I make believe that you are still here with me
It's all I need
I feel your heart as if it was beating with mine
When you're in my world, I am alive
You're all that I need to survive

I've got this friend who says, it's time I let you go (let you go)
The way that you loved me, no one else could ever know
You were the best that ever happened to my heart and to my soul (to my soul)

I see your face
where ever I go
I hear your voice
I want you to know

Refrain:
I feel your arms when I'm lonely
I make believe that you are still here with me
It's all I need
I feel your heart as if it was beating with mine

Bridge:
And if, I mean when
When I see you again
It will be just the same as it was
And if, I mean when
We're together again
Our souls reunited as one

Refrain:
I feel your arms when I'm lonely
I make believe that you are still here with me
It's all I need
I feel your heart as if it was beating with mine

(I feel your arms when I'm lonely, lonely, lonely)

You're in my world
I am alive
You're all that I need to survive
You're all that I need to survive
You're all that I need to survive

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Diana Vicker - Notice

her voice is epic~ fall in love with her voice~ :D

I'm still dancing
Now we're burning
The heat was rising
And now we're breathing more and more

Can you see me now?
Can you hear me shout?
When I'm dancing through the fear
Will you catch my fall?
Do you know me at all?
It's like you never notice me
It's like you never notice me

I'm still trying
I'm not tired just yet
My eyes are drying
I never dreamed that you'd forget

Can you see me now?
Can you hear me shout?
When I'm dancing through the fear
Will you catch my fall?
Do you know me at all?
It's like you never notice me
It's like you never notice me

In my room
There is doubt
The only words cant come out?
We were friends, we had hit
And I choke when you speak

because you never notice me
because you notice me

Can you see me now?
Can you hear me shout?
When I'm dancing through the fear
Will you catch my fall?
Do you know me at all?
It's like you never notice me
It's like you never notice me

Notice me

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VersaEmerge - Stranger

their album are great...one of my fav~

It's so easy when you're fake believing
Untruly speaking, wrecking feelings
It's so easy sparking opposite ends
Fighting the good within, hiding my reasons

Stranger I know so well
You got me tripping over myself
Can't trust in you
'Cause as I reach for your hand
I still sink into quicksand
Isn't my good side worth rescuing?

It's not easy admitting your demons
Tangled up in seasons
Finding lame reasons
I can't fall asleep but I sure can dream

Stranger I know so well
You got me tripping over myself
Can't trust in you
'Cause as I reach for your hand
I still sink into quicksand
Isn't my good side worth rescuing?

I always flip myself into a shape I can't make
Thinking so hard about who we really are
You spark the good within
But I was never good at listening
Listen until you're gone

Stranger I know so well
You got me tripping over myself
Can't trust in you
'Cause as I reach for your hand
I still sink into quicksand
Isn't my good side worth rescuing?

Well, I hope you guys enjoy the lyrics as I do...and the songs too~ :D

XOXO ♥

May the Light will bring you to The Shadows

First of all..

Happy Light Festival Everyone...

or may I say Happy Diwali~ ☺

Oh well, Deepavali doesn't really feel like it...coz I didnt go out of my house..haha

plus, my Indian friends are all so far away...

back home, lots of Indians stays at the same street with my grams..so, during the night, my grandpa would surely bring us along to visit~hahhaa...

Hmmm...let's c..today, my housemate again...asking for me..looking for me..been missing from the livingroom as I keep staying in my room~ my caccoon~hahhaa... sa tgh rajin mo studi bha ni gink~ ;p

So, supposedly today I should study..but instead I keep chatting and watching my old time favorite drama...Charmed!!!!!!

and now I'm blogging...again...after a long time...hahahaa..well done me~

LOL~

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The stories I've been watching growing up...wishing that we could be that way...

Me and my sister were not always in a good term..and watching Charmed, I always hope that we can get along like the Charmed sister..but too bad there are only the two of us...

and after all the years past by..suddenly we had a baby sister...and I forgotten all about Charmed..

but now, suddenly I think about it, we finally became the Charmed ones..hahhaa...

with 3 sisters in a household...and the youngest one is the rebellious one..and I'm the middle one always became the middle person to keep the peace..but sometimes when I get mad with the two of them, they gang up on me~hehhee..but still, I love them... :D

Hear now the words of the witches
The secrets we hid in the night
The oldest of gods are invoked here
The great work of magic is sought
In this night and in this hour
I call upon the ancient power
Bring your powers to we sisters three
We want the power
Give us the power

-Book Of Shadows-

So I guess, I'm gonna dload the whole season 1 again this holiday and let my lil sis watch it~ :D

XOXO ♥