untitled 2020

It's hard when your brain

tires you out

Feeding you different lines of thoughts

Fighting between holding on and letting go

Between hopeful and broken

Telling you that its gonna be okay

And telling you that you look pathetic

Whispering to you to keep on pouring your heart out

Then telling you that its just in your head

That you will keep on losing and breaking

Feeding you hopeful thoughts

Then making you anxious saying you're not even good enough

Telling you that different doesnt mean a thing

But then telling you again, that it wont work for him

Telling to just keep wearing your heart on your sleeves

Then telling you that it will only make you look desperate

I dont want to be pathetic

I dont want to be desperate

I just want to be true and not regret anything

Even if it goes down to nothing

It's tiring till my heart grows heavy

And being ignored and unanswered 

Makes the dark side seems like telling the truth

So should i give up

Should i give in

On this love?

-naraj2020-

Run

I tried to run from you

I tried not to be near you

I tried my best not to look at you

To ignore you, i do

But we end up in the same space

At the same positions

And i know you dont like it

I know it bothers you

Sorry that the universe keeps throwing us in the same place

Sorry that we end up together but far apart

Sorry if my existence making you feel forced

And be someone you dont want to be

So, I'm sorry

I did try to run

But i keep ending up back to you

-naraj2020-