shedding some lights

 

xoxo 

give me a reason

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life it is

no one leds a miserable life unless you allowed yourself to...♥

 

 

-naraj©2012-

xoxo ♥

leave the pieces

You're not sure that you love me
But you're not sure enough to let me go
Baby it ain't fair you know
To just keep me hangin' 'round

You say you don't wanna hurt me
Don't want to see my tears
So why are you still standing here
Just watching me drown

You can drag out the heartache
Baby you can make it quick
Really get it over with
And just let me move on

Don't concern yourself
With this mess you've left for me
I can clean it up, you see
Just as long as you're gone

You not making up your mind
Is killing me and wasting time
I need so much more than that

Its alright, I'll be fine
Dont worry bout this heart of mine
Just take your love and hit the road

There's nothing you can do or say
You gonna break my heart anyway
So just leave the pieces when you're gone...

...broken to pieces...

Been wishing you would notice me for so long
Been praying that one day you'll feel the same
Been hoping that i could call you mine
Been dying to know how you actually feel bout me

Now its here
The day when you finally said those three words
It breaks my heart coz i still couldnt call you mine
And its crystal clear that barrier you would never cross

I hate the fact that i couldnt stay away
I hate the fact that i broke you to pieces
I hate the fact that i couldnt hug you in your lowest moment
I hate that i cared too much...


-naraj2012-

...this is me understanding...

Everything is not always what we want
Every single day is a battle for everyone
Its not that i'm leaving you behind
Its just that i've understood what we've become

I am understanding you
I am understanding us
I am understanding me
I am understanding the future

I'm giving my heart away by calling you dear
I didnt realize that you've come this far
You said you don't wanna hurt me
Well honey,having what we have now its killing me

You told me yourself we will never be together
You told me yourself we dont have a future
So tell me why should i stay and let my heart sore
By standing besides you and know we're gonna be astray

Its complicated is what you always said
And i know you're trying to straighten up your life
But i dont think i'm strong enough
To stay there and then watch you walk away

If being like this is the kind of friendship you wish for
Then I'd rather not board this ship at all
Coz my heart is fragile
Despite the coldness that surrounds it now

-naraj©2012-

xoxo ♥

...where i stood...

I dont know what i've done
Or if i like what i've begun
But something told me to run
And honey, you know me its all or none

There were sounds in my head
Little voices whispering
That i should go and this should end
And i found myself listening

See i thought love was black and white
That it was wrong or it was right
But you ain't leaving without a fight
And i think i'm just as torn inside

Coz i dont know who i am without you
All i know is thay i should
And i dont know if i could stand another hand upon you
All i know is that i should
Coz she will love you more than i could
She who dares to stand where i stood

And i wont be far from where you are if ever you should call
You meant more to me than anyone i ever loved at all
But you taught me how to trust myself and so i say to you
This is what i have to do...

...the end...

Its time to let go
Its time for me to protect this heart of mine
Its time for me to face the truth
Its time for me to realize it wasnt true
Not with you

-naraj©2012-

xoxo ♥

...riverside...

here i am again

standing and strolling by the riverside

with a belief that I'm strong enough

strong enough to denied the temptation

the water's calling

the current is soothing

it makes my heart race

dying to jump into it again

I thought I was strong

to just looking at it by the riverside

but I guess I was wrong

as I feel myself slowly walking towards the edge

I hesitate, and I stopped

but I can't help myself from jumping

now I find myself sinking deep

slowly drowning

the water looked calm and tantalizing

but now that I'm inside

I can feel myself gasping for air

I need the surface to keep my head clear

I don't know how to survive this time around

Coz I've jumped too far ahead

With no hands or branch for me to hold on to

All I can do is to pray that I am strong enough

Strong enough to save myself

Strong enough to swim myself to the riverside

And decided not to look back ever again

Coz something told me to run

-Jonker Street, Melaka-

-naraj©2012-

xoxo ♥

...all i wanted...

all i wanted
Was to know that heart of yours
Was it in sync with mine

Or am i standing alone
It hurts to be here
I only wanted love from you

All i have..all i need
Is the air i would kill to breath

You could be my hero
If only i could let go
Coz it feels like a broken arrow
That's still in me

....Four Leaf Clover...

Boy, you let me down
I tried too hard & I feel numb now
That crooked smile & your charm that drew me in
Your beautiful eyes,
Can hide so many things
You were my Four Leaf Clover
My pure white dove
You were my lightning strike & my knock on wood
My hope & my faith
My luck & love
You were my shooting star
That lit up the sky
Then you broke the mirror & my heart died
No hope & no faith
No luck, no love
Just ordinary now
I'm not crying
But I thought you were the perfect thing for me
Don't get me wrong
You can be wonderful sometimes
But then you're lost
And you can't look me in the eyes

...i'd do it all over again...

everytime you came to me...
You're broken...
And i've given my all to mend you...
But you chose the road to destruction again and again...
Everybody hurts someday...
Everybody feels this way...
You're the one who decide...
Whether to mend yourself...
Or continue to be broken...
Or to be a jerk to yourself...

Love is not something you can choose...
Its either you felt it or you dont...
Its either you are sincere or you're not...
Its either you love the physical thing or the heart inside...

I have done all I can to save you...
But you still choose to stray away...

-naraj©2012-

xoxo ♥

~Between you and i~

And its been years...
Since i last met you and shed my tears..
Never thought that we could be like this again...
And you keep saying how sorry you are...
Between you and i..
There will always be another girl that drift us apart..
Between you and i..
You will always keep leaving me to mend myself..
Between you and i..
You will keep coming back with those sorry's..
Between you and i..
I'll be foolish enough to trust you again and again...
Between you and i..
You never believed for our happy ending..
Between you and i..
I keep thinking that i was just your rebound..
Between you and i..
Your affection leds to my destruction..
Between you and i..
Its always been me who'd left with brokenheart...
Between you and i..
We had something beautiful...
But so dysfunctional,
Coz i knew you would never love me back...
Yet...i feel better near to you...

-naraj©2012-

xoxo ♥