...My Heart is in need of medicine...

I missed them

So much that it hurts

I missed my family

I missed my siblings and arguing with them

I missed my crazy cousins and the crazy stuff we did

I missed my soul sister aka my dongsaeng~~

I missed my grandparents so much!!!

I missed home!

I wanna go home~

 It's true indeed that absence makes the heart grows fonder~

and my heart does grows fonder until it gets sick~~

XOXO ♥

...Try Your Best...

You find it hard

for you to get over him

Well darling, I think it's time

For you to wake up and smile

I can't be with you

To help you get over it

But I need you to know

Love yourself more to make people love you

You keep blaming yourself

For all the wrong reasons

Maybe he's not meant for you

Maybe somewhere out there, someone is waiting for you

Believe me darling

One day, you'll see

When you reminisced all of this

You'll laugh your heart out

Just keep in mind

You should be grateful to have him

And grateful for losing him

That's an experience for you to learn your life and mature you

You may not see it now

You may feel like you're losing everything in your life

You'll hurt like you've never hurt before

But, sooner or later, you'll see the beauty behind it

-naraj©2010-

p/s: remember what I've told you. Don't let yourself down.. you're better than that~ Consider the feelings of those around you..love them more as you love yourself..then you'll feel better~

...My One & Only...

I have loved You all my life
I used to be close to You
You made me a better person
Living my life in Your embrace

But as I grow
I was tempted by my surroundings
Lured into the Darkness
Leaving Your light behind me

I found fake love and lies along the way
But none ever makes me safe as You did
There's no one loves me like You do
And You're always there watching me

Now i realized what a fool I've been
I'm finding my way back to You
Coz You are the one and only
My true love for Eternity~~~
Dear Allah

-naraj©2010-

...The Journey...

All these while
I've been happy and contented
with just my family and my friends
Eventhough my heart longs for more

This is my safe place
And I'm scared to leave it to find my fairytale
Until one fine day
I decided to leap from this place of mine

My first destination was only a brief moment
and it didnt feel anything like a fairytale I dreamed of
I feel numb and sober all the time
That's all I can tell

My second road is my faith and hope
And I see it getting crush day by day
Without you realizing it
Coz you don't even care, no more

My third was a passerby
Who tricked me to his candy house
All sweets and nice
But inside, it's a dungeon full of lies

My fourth was my soulmate
I feel the chemistry and so did he
He made my day, and I his
But life's always have its own agenda for us, so I depart

Now when I was finding myself again
I came back to where I started, my safest place
And there I found you
So near, yet so far for me to reach you


-naraj©2010-

XOXO ♥

...Especially for my bestfriend!!!!...

He captured her heart
She holds him dearly
She felt like he's the one
They were meant for each other

year by year
time passed by
he's younger by age but older in his mind
She matured together by his side

She may feel small besides him
She may act like a child, throwing tantrums to him
But all she really felt in her heart
Is the love for him that's getting stronger

He's pious in his own way
Guiding her to follow the same path
Sometimes she feel blessed, sometimes irritated
She's just a little girl in love after all

He's always the first in her life
Getting thru each day thinking about him
He believes that they can survive anything
As long as Allah SWT allows them

But everything fell apart
When he leave her before he depart

Broke her heart into million pieces

Coz she never thought this would happen

He said he loves God more than her

It's understandable for everyone

But why must it be now?

Why after wasting all these years??

-naraj©2010-

be strong girl~ I'll always be here for you~ ♥ u~~

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...Believe...

Sometimes I thought

Maybe I should just forget it

Maybe I shouldn't believe you

Maybe you will poach my heart as you did before

But I still want to believe you

And risking my heart to bleed again

now I don't know what did I do

or what should I do

Maybe I should let it rest in pieces...

Maybe I should just let everything go

Maybe I was meant to be alone...

XOXO ♥

...The Darkest Hour...

You're a dream come true
I feel blessed when you found me
And you called me your princess
and treated me like a princess should

Rumours spreading around us
I want to keep my faith in you
Believing that you'd told me only the truth
and never had I doubt you

I ignore my brothers pleas
For me to leave you before I hurt
I believe them but not as much as
I'd put my faith in you

I started thinking
Maybe this fairytale is too much
It feels good on the outside
But still, I feel empty inside

Finally the day come
When I finally realized and open up my eyes
This is not a castle that you build for me
But a cage of lies for you to hold me

So much for my knight in shining armour
I saved myself from your claws
Still you tried to act like you care
But I won't listen no more...

-naraj©2010-

p/s:
I crush it all and I'm satisfied
A twisted tongue and a face of mask
He fooled me once, but no more...

...loving it....

been listening to his songs for a while

love the lyrics

For The Rest Of my Life-Maher Zain

I praise Allah for sending me you my love
You found me home and sail with me
And I`m here with you
Now let me let you know
You`ve opened my heart
I was always thinking that love was wrong
But everything was changed when you came along
OOOOO
And theres a couple words I want to say
Chorus:
For the rest of my life
I`ll be with you
I`ll stay by your side honest and true
Till the end of my time
I`ll be loving you.loving you
For the rest of my life
Thru days and night
I`ll thank Allah for open my eyes
Now and forever I…I`ll be there for you

I know that deep in my heart
I feel so blessed when I think of you
And I ask Allah to bless all we do
You`re my wife and my friend and my strength
And I pray we`re together eternally
Now I find myself so strong
Everything changed when you came along

And theres a couple word I want to say
*Repeat Chorus
I know that deep in my heart now that you`re here
Infront of me I strongly feel love
And I have no doubt
And I`m singing loud that I`ll love you eternally

Repeat Chorus
I know that deep in my heart..

XOXO

....Turbulence....

All I wanted is to know
All I need is reassurance
All I ask is for you to tell me
Everything that I want to know

You made my world chaos
You made the turbulence that I couldnt stop
I wanna believe you
But I'm scared that I could lost

Lost and trapped in the space
Of where my heart wont rest
But I'll do my best
wishing this is just a test

If you're taking it slow
Just let me know
Dont left me blind
if you're just being too kind

Looking around me
I know you're all that I see
and I'm just being me
Living my life without you here

-naraj©2010-

.....jUsT BeCauSe.....

It was the first time
she ever opened up her heart
holding on to the hand of a stranger
A stranger she barely knew
Yet she trust her heart into it

All she ever think is he's the one

She trying her best to make her fairytale come true

Yet she felt hurt day by day

And she keep lying to herself saying that

This is how it supposed to feel in the real world

She hold on with all her heart

But deep inside, her heart is slowly bleeding

She defended her first love till she can't breathe

Yet, she was unappreciated

She thought that was the end

She thought that she couldn't believe anymore

she thought that maybe fairytales don't come true

Till he came

She's been living in a fairytale world

Her euphoric world just keep getting better

Maybe there is fairytales in this world

maybe there is Prince Charming for her

Then, the truth came out

He's not the prince she thought he was

But a snake pretend to be one

Her world of fantasy comes crumbling down

She tries to forget

But sometimes,she reminisced it

Now, it feels like a dream

A nightmare from far far away

Now, she still believe in fairytales

She still believe her Prince is somewhere out there

No matter how the world treated her

She will stands her ground

Seeds of hope is in her heart

And it grows week by week

Eventhough, it was often neglected

But she still hope that it'll grow into something beautiful

-naraj©2010-

XOXO ♥

...the end and the starting...

Been a while

Away from all this world where I kept my fairytales dreams

Starts to get busy this few weeks

Got little time to go on9...which really irritates me

Now in my lab, class finish early, so decided to drop by a few words...

Will be writing more *hopefully*

in the near future...just not at the moment~

what with finals, assignments, tests and also 

My Convocation!!!! *yippe*

really miss my jia ren~

can't wait to see them next month~~

miss my nainai & yeye too~~

wish me luck guys~

XOXO