Somehow i knew it was my fault.. It was my fault for letting you in. It was my fault for letting you stay.. It was my fault for letting you breaks my heart and my soul.. It was my fault for wanting your company and your attention.. It was my fault for always needing you to be presence.. It was my fault for loving you so deeply, that i destroys me.. It was my fault for letting you lie to me again and again.. It was my fault for thinking that you could only have eyes on me.. It was my fault that i would never be good enough for you.. It was my fault for feeling like i am never enough for you when you keep looking at other perfect girls and saying how much you want them.. It was my fault for thinking that you would want to marry me.. It was my fault thinking that you are matured beyond your age, which you are at the beginning.. It was my fault for thinking that you will always be that way.. It was my fault for letting you hold me back again and again.. It was my fault for thinking that you might love me as much as i did to you. It was my fault for hoping that this was my happily ever after.. It was my fault that i'm draining myself to become this lifeless and toxic person.. It was my fault for not being strong enough to get back to who i used to be.. It was my fault for not able to stay strong despite my surroundings.. I was not who i was 3 years ago..and it was my fault for letting me destroy myself when i feel like i was never enough for you..
~Naraj 2017©~
