...It hurts so bad, it's killing me...

Maybe i know, somewhere
Deep in my soul
That love never lasts
And we've got to find other ways
To make it alone
Or keep a straight face
-Paramore 'The Only Exception'-

Watching fireflies with you
Feels like a distants dreams
Now, I'm going to the other realm
Just to forget you

I know you promise me
And you know I love you
But you can't take it
My life without you

Can't you see this is where I belong?
with you're hands in my hands
Wish that day could last
Longer than a day

I tore you out of my heart
and i let it go
But it's you that I dreamed of
and nothing compares to you

I wish you were strong enough
To believe in yourself
and believe in us
but I guess you're not

I plan to keep on holding on
But you sound like you're so distant
and I can barely hear you anymore
When all I dream is to keep this love forever

naraj 10'

...another story...

And the journey continues...

The princess leans towards the light

She tries to hold on to the tree

Try to see the way where the light goes

But suddenly, the tree broke

and she falls from grace again

Then a prince came and save her

He put her back on her feet

and he even try to look for the light with her

He gave her hopes

Treating her scars and bruises

and she fell for him

But as fast and suprising the prince came

He gone the same way

She tries to look for him

She tries to catch up with him

But she can't

She thought she saw him

but it was just an illusion

She thought she'll break into a million pieces

But she didn't, so she stands up on her own this time

She walks the long journey alone

keep falling and bruising herself along the way

The scars that have been treated, slowly open

and blood gush out, trickling down the wounds

She even fall and have a hard time to get up

But with no one to pull her up, she keep going on her own

She tries to believe that she's strong enough to make it through

She's strong enough not to fall again

and that she won't need the prince anymore

and she stop looking his way

After a while,

when she is capable enough to walk steadily

when she believed that she is strong enough and happy on her own

Suddenly the prince came again

offering her his hands

Taking her to places in the forest that she never thought would exist

Looking in the darkness on the almost bared trees

Fills with fireflies and shines like stars on earth

and she fall again for the second time for him

He take her on his horse

Saying how she's the first girl to be on his horse with him riding it

He showed her all the affection he never showed before

and her heart began to sing again

the journey doesn't feel so hard anymore

But occasionally

the prince went away

and she feels lost without him

and she feel scared that he might leave again

coz she doesn't know if she can walk anymore after all that

but when he came back, she feels like, the sun shines brightly on her

her heart warms like drinking hot cocoa on a snowy day

and she hopes that the prince knows how she feels

naraj 10' ♥

...the safest road...

when you hope

You'll either gets what you hope for

Or you'll get crush by it

And either way, it's unavoidable

People say, the way to avoid your heart from being dissappointed

is by not putting any hope on anything or anyone

But, hope always comes unexpectedly

and when it's there in our heart, we can't avoid to feel it

I throw away all my hopes for you

Coz it kills me everytime I do

But then you always come the moment I'm starting to forget you

And gives me hope that it'll start anew

naraj10'

XOXO ♥

...please tell me that it's real...

I try to forget you

Coz you never seem to care

But then you show up again

and I can't help but to fall again

I've missed you

but you never known that

I thought I am strong enough

But I guess I'm wrong

You gave me hope

You showed me love

But theb you dissappeared again

when I needed you most

What should I do?

What have I done?

What are you trying to do?

The fireflies in my heart starts to fade away...

I became a fool when it comes to you

Yet you still want to act cool

Why can't you act like you did that night

Like you really care for me

That moment is perfect

Please don't walk away

I need you now

and I'll hold on to it

naraj10

...It feels like dream to me...

You gave me hope

And I fall deeper into you

But you never tell me the truth

And I was left alone

I thought I could forget you

I thought I could ignore you

I thought I am strong enough to resist you

But I couldn't

And now you came

When I thought it was just a game

and you make me fall even more

and I know I love you

You said to me

Things you've never said before

You do things to me

Things you've never done before

You act around me

The way you've never act before

I thought it was a dream

Coz everything seems surreal

But you held my hands

and I couldn't never let you go

Being with you feels so natural

Like breathing on fresh air

Feeling you is beautiful

Coz I know you're finally here with me

naraj10

XOXO ♥